Conversations with my Inner Child
edited: Wednesday, February 10, 2010
By D. Scott Arant
Rated "PG" by the Author.
Posted: Wednesday, February 10, 2010
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Scott has a live conversation with his inner child. Scott has found positive results helping him in life when he converses with his inner child...he calls little Scottie
Thoughts-Conversations with My Inner Child
How is my inner child today?
How is little Scottie?
I am doing fine. I feel more safe now.
What do you mean by more safe?
Well, I used to feel like I was never safe.
Why did you feel this way Scottie?
I just did.
I guess I did not feel loved like I should have felt.
Why didn’t you feel love Scottie?
Well, I did feel some love; I guess just not enough to really feel fully loved.
What would it take for you to feel fully loved Scottie?
Someone really would care for me by loving me unconditionally.
Did you ever feel loved unconditionally Scottie?
No, I never did in any life time here on this earth.
Did you ever feel unconditional love from your Source-God?
Yes, that is all Source-God can do is love without any condition.
Then why are you looking for something you cannot get here on earth?
That is the mystery…I don’t know why…I don’t even know what unconditional love looks or really feels like in the flesh.
Have you felt it before Scottie in another realm…say in heaven?
Yes, we all feel it…it is all encompassing…overwhelming on every hand.
You feel as if it permeates your entire being.
Have you ever felt anything close to this overwhelming feeling on earth?
No, not even close.
The closest thing I can relate to as a human is sex or the feeling of orgasm.
Food comes in as a close second.
These are fleeting feelings though and only last seconds compared to the overwhelming feelings of unconditional love you feel when you are in heavenly states.
Scottie how does one cope without the feelings of this unconditional love you speak about?
I don’t know for sure…that is just how I feel.
Once you receive this love…or feel it even for a second…it never leaves your mind.
It is transcendental to say the least.
What do you mean transcendental?
Again, a very poor word for what I feel.
It is beyond words or human expression…words do it little justice.
I can easily see why people get addicted to narcotics and drugs due to wanting to re-experience this feeling of love that can only come from our Source-God.
Scottie how does one cope then while here on earth without this feeling of unconditional love that can only come from Source-God.
It is quite difficult to say the least…especially when you have re-experienced it while here on earth…even if for a fleeting moment.
The only thing I can even come remotely close to this feeling is the feeling of orgasm which is fleeting too. After one, it makes you feel warm and fuzzy all over. It gives you a feeling of belonging and a semblance of love.
Can an orgasm fulfill your feelings of wanting this love Scottie?
No, not even close.
When have you felt the feelings of unconditional love?
Only in God’s presence.
While here on earth?
Yes, I have felt it while on earth…although fleetingly.
What if you were to feel this unconditional love all the time while on earth?
I don’t think one could fully function on a human level with this kind of experience.
I don’t think the human being, or the flesh part of us could handle it for long enduring times.
Maybe that is the reason you don’t feel this love as much as you would like?
Yes, I suppose this is why.
It does not minimize my longings for it though.
Yes, I suppose you are right here.
So, Scottie how are you to function in your humanity while still only feeling fleeting moments of this love?
It is tough. It is not impossible though.
Nothing is really impossible if you realize that this is just your humanity and not the full blown creation that you are.
In reality, you are never away from this love…it is always there on a deeper level of the God-mind.
Glimpses go past your human veiled flesh and impregnate you with this feeling that you have felt before. Glimpses, shafts of light come into your awareness allowing you to remember who you really are.
These too, are only fleeting remembrances of who you are.
Then you suddenly come to realize that you are human and you are fully loved even in your humanness. God does not decipher between our humanity and our divinity…they are all one to Source-God.
How about you Scottie…are you happy with your humanity?
Not fully…I still have an uncomfortable feeling about my flesh.
What do you think it is Scottie?
It is not fully me. I feel this feeling of incompleteness…of human emptiness.
How do you get over this Scottie?
I am not sure I can in the flesh…I can try…but I don’t know if I will ever get over the fact that I am human too. I love certain things about humanity and my humanness, but I am well aware of my divinity which over-shadows my humanity.
Maybe the real reason I am here is to be able to be comfortable in my humanity too…maybe even learn to love it as God loves me.
I don’t know if this is possible though…I am open to the possibility though.
Thanks Scottie for sharing your valued thoughts with me.
Is there anything I can do for you Scottie?
No, just love me as God-Source loves me.
You have my word on it Scottie…I do love you.
I know you do…I love you too.