This is the story of my life. Aware to my fellow sisters. We all need to be careful. And lookout what were getting into.
Christians sometimes are not really what they say.
REAL CHRISTIANS HAVE THE REAL HEART
I KNOW THAT WE STRUGGLE ALLOT TO FOLLOW GOD'S STEP'S. BUT WE CAN STILL BE HONEST AND GOOD TO PEOPLE. EVEN WHEN WE SOMETIMES STEP OUT OF THE LORD'S PATH. THE HEART IS WHAT GOD SEES IN US. THE WILLING POWER OF CHOICE WE HAVE IN US THAT MAKES US WORTHY OF GOD.
There's one sad thing about some Christians. Some Christians use Christianity to hide their real face, and make others believe they have changed. They scape from their past and make others believe they have changed. When they are really still trapped in their own world full of sins. I was born again when i was 22 years old, and i'm 47 now, i have retired from the path the Lord showed me. And then i came back again, and i did this a few times; and really what this gave me was allot of pain. Because out there in the crude world there's no humanity between humans, we are called humans, and were more savages then real animal sometimes. People everywhere around the world have a huge lack of morals and integrity. I have found myself, only when i met Jesus Christ. And even when i left him, to then come back, i always knew in my heart that the only way to go through this cruel world alive and happy; "was to follow Jesus".
SAD REAL STORY
TO PROOF MY POINT;
This happened in 1992, I met this man at a Christian church; i
have always being a woman searching for the right man, for the right
love, for my prince; I was married when i was very young and had two
children; but it didn't last. Only five years. I was 32 years old when i
met this Christian man; at a Christian church in North West Miami. I met
this nice guy; "apparently".
We were in a service at church, "I was happy" i said to myself, "I
want to meet a man of God". Well yes. This was a man of God, but he was one of does people that took God's knowledge to make someone believe he was a good person; and trustworthy. He looked nice and honest. After we met, we talked on the phone and he invited me out. I accepted and went to his house to meet with him. We took off to Miami Beach on his car.
At the first hour we went to have ice cream and drove around ocean
Drive. Then he started to ask me weird questions; about if i liked him
allot and if i wanted to have sex; He said to me. "We are adults here,
and i think is not bad to have sex if you like me" I said, "No i
didn't accept to come with you, with any intention of having sex, i want to
be your friend" And the men was getting upset just for what i said.
Sometimes we as Christians believe in other people because we ourselves are good; and we trust that the other person is like us; we believe that who follows God's word is someone to be trustworthy. But it is not that way at all. Some people take advantage of this to do harm to others.
He kept asking me and telling me that he liked it me and that why can
we be together if we were adults. That he wanted to be with me
sexually. I was so very nervous because in my mind i never thought i was going
to be ask by a Christian this kind of question. I trusted the guy
because apparently he was a Christian man. He kept on and on, and he
started driving fast on the highway; and a cop stopped us, and gave him a citation. I wanted so much to run out of the car and tell the cop what was happening. "But i didn't."
After he kept driving by Biscayne Boulevard, by the Motels and looking
for a good spot. While he was driving, i was saying to him. "You are
doing something i don't want to do" "please take me back home". The man didn't care; he kept on, until he found a Motel and drove in to the
parking lot. Then he tells me "Wait here" It was like a movie horror. He
didn't care or heard what i had told him. That i didn't want to have sex.
He was so eager and crazy looking. I stayed in the car, and while he was paying the room. I saw this car pulling in to the parking lot; and i
got out of my car and ask the two guys, in a grieving way, "please can
you help me, i need to get out of here; this man I am with wants to rape
me. Please help me! The guys were surprised and they said to me, We are going out. You just walk out and we will be there waiting for you.
They when out of the parking lot and i walked out. I thought they
were going to wait for me; But when i got there they weren't around. I
had to go back to the car. I don't know why i did this; I guess i was
scared to walk in the middle of the night. When i got back to the car the
guy comes back and he takes me to the room he rented. He was saying to me, "you will like it", we are adults, etc. I was even crying but he
still took me inside the Motel room. I sat on the bed and he was
getting undressed ; as i was saying; "I don't want to do this please, you
are making me do something against my will. "Please" But the man didn't care he kept on, i was so nervous i knew i had to do it, or he would
hit me or who knows what. So i told him. "do you have protection? and
he said. "no but I'll get one at the Motel office" so he when and got a
condom. I had to give in to him.
But i never had the intention of this. I wanted to get to know him
and do things like God wanted me to. This was a terrible experience in my life that i will never forget. "He raped me". After this happen;
I wanted to cry. But i hold my tears; he seemed so odd, weird. That i
was scared to make any movement that would upset him. So i just ask
him. Did you like it? I was acting to get out of the situation in good
terms . "Alive" All I know about the guy is; That he is Cuban and he lives in the Miami area. I know in my heart, that this man must have a criminal record. I don't even remember his name. But his face will never leave my memory. We can't believe in people just because they seem nice, or humble. Christians are wonderful human beings. This man wasn't a Christian. He was a fake trying to get away with rape.