Was I and would come to discover not alone is this life as it became a growing issue.
When I was young I sure had many dreams and visions of happiness the way life was suppose to be, as I assumed.
Unfortunately my life had always seemed to go in the opposite direction all the time as I faced many difficulties.
Furthermore, the biggest one to ever cross my path would be my first love, as I became introduced to many romantic moments.
The intense passion that rose was like no other that I ever experienced and mainly since there had been no other until now.
Soon the sizzling flames between he and I would become dim as my hand trembled holding the pregnancy test stick that read POSITIVE!
Then panic struck and a big argument, as I told him ,“Why did you not use something”, and this went back and forth.
Until he said, “Seriously Laura, look at the holes in my jeans and shoes, get money from where, the money tree in the back yard?
Hysterical and crying I said, “You could have borrowed funds to make sure we played safely!
Upset he yelled, “Well I did not okay or thinking smart alright, sue me!
At that moment silence surrounded as I cried heavier and was completely scared .
Given the fact that we were just teenagers and swept up into the passionate moment of each other and naturally never thought twice at the possible outcome of rising heat.
Now we sure had a lot to think about and where to live, (etc) as we had no jobs of course.
However, the hardest hurdle to overcome would be telling our parents as Charlie sure feared it most since he had been abused most of his life and his words to me were, “I had better wear an iron mask when I tell my folks as this time I am goanna get seriously hurt!
Although he would be wrong and it became more tears of fear and shock than anything .
Furthermore, he and I would drift apart during those nine months and I sure discovered now the biggest hurt of all as my heart shattered.
I went on though and had a safe secure roof over my head with my parents (Grandparents) of course.
I moped around a lot until my father( Grandpa ) handed me the huge hot fudge sundae I actually craved every night.
Sad to say though there was still no proper plan in effect and what in all honesty would I remain with my parents and raise the child alone without Charlie ?
That had now been caught sneaking around with other girls.
Furthermore, how could his life just go on, I am at home puking daily, and my back pain grew even worse as I sure grew?
Unfair I thought as we made this baby together and from what I gathered out of love that was nowhere in sight now.
Sadly I would face those months alone and hoping an answer would arise.
It was now July 1987 and I went into my seventh month as me and my good friend Michelle were in the back yard lying tanning and soaking up the sun rays of a very hot day.
When she sat up and pointed saying, “Hey Laura there is a delivery truck out front?
Instantly I rose up off the blanket and wobbled to the front yard as I looked at my mother (Grandma) standing on the porch in tears .
Michelle was right behind me in curiosity and so was I to what is going on?
Then the delivery men opened up the back of the truck as all eyes became glued at that point as a brand new dresser was brought out and then a changing table .
My mother sobbed heavier as Michelle remarked, “Woe Laura some wealthy relative must be helping”, as we now watched a wooden rocker come down the ramp and a white top of the line crib fit for a princess.
I shook now and asked, “Ma what’s going on, who done this you and dad?
In tears flowing she cried, “No Laura not us I wish we could” and right as I went to question again who?
Charlie suddenly appeared and held in his hands the amazing baby comforter set with rocking horses.
Instantly tears rolled down my face as he comes closer and Michelle now stepped aside and cried her heart out.
She was not alone that day as he handed me the comforter set for our child and said, “Here Laura this is for Fallon!
My hands trembled grabbing hold of such a pretty set and I asked, “But Charlie how?
He smiled, as I said, “Oh dear god your not doing nothing illegal?
Michelle cracked a smile and he replied, “Never”.
I let my deep breath out and said, “Charlie this must have cost a fortune and I know how your whole life your parents struggled raising seven kids how is this possible?
The reply was truly unexpected to me as he said; “I have been going to college during the day for accounting and at night had been working at a restaurant“.
I was stunned at this point and said, “Wow tips bought all this huh”, as he smiled saying, “No my new job at the bank just did”, and I thought I’d go into labor at that shocking moment .
When the biggest shock of all took place and my father( Grandpa) come out from the front door to the upstairs unit of their two family home and with a slight smile he said, “Well child we should get this stuff off the lawn and up into you and Charlie’s place ?
I gasped saying loudly, “WHAT?
My father said, “You were never alone Laura and naturally many harsh words exploded from worry but never disappointment in you or what happen and sad to say it can and does in these changing times!
I just stood crying along with my best friend and mother (Grandma).
When my father added, “It happen maybe not at the right time but what is a parent suppose to do turn our back on our child that needs us more then ever or give myself another stroke?
I cried very heavily at that moment as I suddenly heard a motorcycle and Ritchie pulled up and gave a smile saying ,“Well pal Charlie let’s get you moved in huh?
At that point that is just what happened and more shock to add .
Since I actually walked into a place filled with furniture as I expected it to be bare with only the baby things now.
However, my father (Grandpa) stood next to me as I touched my very own sofa and he said, “Charlie is going to help me pay the monthly payments on the credit card“.
Instantly I hugged him and said, “Oh dad thank you”, as he said, “You always knew Laura the day those adoption papers were signed and legally you became ours was my greatest dream to ever come true and even on my birthday to add what a special day!
One month later was truly a special day August 6th 1987 as me and Charlie looked down onto our precious daughter Fallon lying asleep in the crib made for a true princess.
However, all seemed to be well and fine at the time, but remember a table can always turn?
Furthermore, in all honesty we were just kids and facing the biggest and most difficult responsibilities ahead.
Therefore, would sure face a rocky road ahead?