Living life, free of past resentments, I believe in my heart when I get new ones that all I have to do is re-read this piece. Today, February 9, 2004, I am able to forgive whoever is making me angry because it is the difference between me and someone else that makes me angry not really the person.
Today, I feel so many different emotions
Because you've hurt me. Yesterday,
I was hurt so much I couldn't feel pain… only stuff it.
Today, because you hurt me,
I have a chance to be reborn,
To accept the pain differently
Than I ever have before.
Thank you for this gift. I, too,
Knew that it was only a matter of time
When we would be apart; allowing
Us the room to grow and be independent.
You still need to play escape artist.
You've shown me I'm finished playing escape artist.
Today, I'm walking through this pain
I am going to do this without turning to old vices.
I can accept this feeling, which today,
I'm able to recognize as not only an emotional pain,
But… it's a physical one as well.
I loved you and you loved me.
I cared for you, you cared for me.
I shared with you, you shared with me.
I needed you, you needed me too.
I gave to you and you gave in return.
Then... I took from you and you took from me.
I felt: abandoned, scared, cheated, betrayed,
Confused, angry and sad like a victim again.
Nevertheless, maybe I caused you
To feel all these same ways once upon a time,
And couldn't see it because of where you were
At the time, and where I was then… it was different.
No matter what happens to us, I'll never forget
You were there for me and for that,
I'll be very-ever grateful to God and to you.
Let's hang on to the sweet memories and
The many good times that we've had,
Let's let go of the past and begin feeling…
New things when we think of each other.
I will often think of you. - . now and forever more.
God is with us each individually
To comfort us in our hours of need.
I have accepted that everyone's time
Of need is different today than it was before.
In the past, I've let something like betrayal
Cause hate to grow inside my heart
Not today! it's just not going to be the case!
No matter what, I know that you did
What it was that you had to do at the time!
I still love you; your memory lingers forever.
My main message is that I forgive you for hurting me.
That old saying is "If you love someone let them go,
If they come back to you, it was meant to be," is true .
Goodbye, Dear Loved Ones Who Have Hurt Me
May God be with you Always and forever more.
Written by VicToria in 1992 to all the people in my life that have hurt me.
All resentments are gone never to return healed by our Awesome God.