Become a Fan
Just another simple ranting from my time in the hospital, and shortly thereafter. There's a few of these, some conflict and repeat, mainly because I wrote when my muse was high and my emotions were real.
Praise be! It's been far too long since I've been in this notebook again! Maybe I was afraid of wht I would add, maybe I just didn't need this anymore...who knows? Not I...well, another perfectly shitty day alone...I fucking hate being isolated like this. The only things keeping me from kicking a hole in the wall is the nicotine and my brother (in that order, mind you.). I was actually relieved that I didn't have to go to that stuffy little room to her the two of those droning morons complain about how perfect I "could" be. They make me sick sometimes, the way they try so hard, but then again, it makes me realize how much potential I might actually have. How easy it would be to put it over that I just fine. All I need to do is do my homeowrk and not complain. Then, when I escape online or to a friend's house, I can rant and scream about all the things that drive me insane around here! About all the things that make me wish I could tear it all down and recreate the world the way it really should be. To stand with the dreamers and seers above the droning peons like Gods as I snuff out those naive slackers! Leave the ones who knew that there was something more for this world than just jobs and money, more than just jungles of concrete and who has a faster and more expensive car. I want the ones who look into a thicket or a forest ans ee home...not bugs and dirt. Throw away religion...fear of God and all that other bullshit. Make it known that we are indeed in charge of what happens with our own lives! I would leave in the wake of the modern era a new revelation! Of compassion, love, artistic creation! It would be a return to what so few people once envisioned upon this polluted mud-ball! AH!! UTOPIA!!!!