Blogs by Danielle Mundy
5/8/2006 9:26:01 AM
Ok, so sometimes I write things here or on my other blog when I am angry that are hurtful if read by the wrong person. I know as much as the next person that words said in anger may not neccesarily be the way that you really feel, but they seem to last longer in the memory than words of kindness. I posted a blog on here a few months ago, back in February, after I wrecked my car and needless to say, I was not in the best of moods. I was stranded at my mom's house and I mentioned something about being stuck there, even though what I was really feeling was guilt at imposing on them when I know that they are busy, especially my step-dad who works from home and needs quiet and that is preciously rare with 3 rambunctious children running around. I was also dealing with both my step-father and step-brother telling me that they wouldn't have wrecked the car had they been driving and I let it seriously tick me off. What I failed to recognize at that point was that they were basically kidding with me and I let it go to heart.
I suppose that the point of this isn't to recap what I wrote, but to update it. I got a phonecall from my mother today letting me know that both she and my step-dad had read my blog and they were upset, and I couldn't for the life of me understand why. What I've just realized is that I have a tendency to only write when I need to vent, and I don't talk about the ways that people are wonderful to me. The men that I practically called chauvenists were also the men who went out in the freezing cold and replaced my tie-rod (tire rod? I dunno, I'm a girl) and spindle. And they didn't do this because they wanted to get their hands dirty, they did it because the mechanics were trying to soak me and they wanted to save me some money. My step-brother went with me to Sears auto so I could get my alignment and then my step-dad "test-drove" it to make sure that he was satisfied with the steering. On top of that, my step-dad was the one who found the parts that I needed at the junk yards so I wouldn't have to buy new or used from the shop (I will take credit for the rim though :p that was all me..except my brother had to pick it up..minor technicalities.)
There is so much more than just this one time that they have been there for me, and I am feeling guilty about venting the way I did with out some kind of retraction. What I did was character assassination and I can't stand that out of politicians so why should I do it myself? Everything that my mother helps we with that I am so grateful for comes with the blessing if not the encouragement of my step-father, so I'm thinking that I need to show a bit more appreciation than to call him a jerk just because I'm mad. And I shouldn't say that I just appreciate him for helping me when I need it, I appreciate him for treating me like I have at least half a brain (though I doubt that I will ever win him over when I say that I know how to take care of a car lol), I respect him for thinking that I have it in me to stand on my own two feet, and I appreciate him most of all for finally making my mom happy.
I think that I also need to apologize to my step-brother for the comments as well. Aside from helping his dad with the repairs on my vehicle, he is also just a good guy, even if he is a little brother. So, please take anything derogatory that I say with a grain of salt and know that unless I am talking about my ex that I probably like the person a hell of a lot more than what I am writing would imply. Now if I can get this foot shoe-horned out of my mouth I'm going to call my Step-father and attempt to apologize.
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