Blogs by c lea harris
I'm Back, Wiser, Stronger and at a Breathing Point
3/15/2008 2:51:02 AM
So, who's still out there, the journey from there to here has been alittle rockey, but smoother days are coming.
The last time I posted anything was on yahoo 360, when my granddaughter Robin Mary was taken by the Odawa Indian Tribe. Believe it or not, I have been reading postings from all my friends from 360 and Authors Den, helping me walk the shadows of a very long journey. Itís been a long hard road, to get where I am today. Just wanted to let everyone know Iím back. I must have totally went off on a cliff of non-existence. I was functioning, but I was not living. If, youíve been there, you know exactly where I am I have coming from.
As, to refresh your memory, my daughter, Nakkeya, got into the wrong crowd, and headed down the wrong path and made some bad choices. She is now unfortunately paying for them, she's released now, I thought we were going to repair our relationship, but now it's the hell with mom and only fun matters. Her first set release, was to be in June, but hopefully she is on the right path now, hopefully to stay on it, when she gets back into society. Nakkeya has three daughters, Camaron, who is now 5, Jeslyn, 3 and Robin Mary, is a 1 yr, the 9th of Jan, who happens to be walking now. Itís so hard to believe, especially when we received her she was 35 days old, then she was taken by her motherís choice, the Odawa Indian Tribe in May of :08Ē
We have gotten to see a total of four times, which has been part of pulling me thru, this darken path. The last time was in Jan. now she has blocked me from seeing her.
I have yet been able to finish my goal of education, but now back into classes to continue my degree in Criminal Analysis. If, all things go well, should be graduating in 2011.
I know am living alone, most days is the best choice I have made been in a long while, except for telling D.S.S., those girls only belonged in one place and that was with us.
Since, July 2007, I have separated from my husband, I couldnít fight the battle of the bottle, for his attention and the criticism anymore. Not, that he is not a good person, but I guess when you put your wife on the shelf, she can take only so much. Instead of coming home, and being that person, I once married. He chose his friends and crawling into the bottle. Despite his accomplishments and intelligence, he had a very low self esteem about him and he did not praise others on their goals reached and when I needed the time to study to complete mine, he just didnít seem to want to be there, however I made it to passing grade, it was hard, for if youíve been there, with very two active girls, there were a couple of classes I did not do well in, for there was no support, but now, I have what it takes and going full force.
Now, the time has come, I am living single, and to a point enjoy it. I have a great job, doesnít pay as much as I would like, but, the thought, I can do what I want when I get out of Thompsonís Linen Service and the best thing about it, I usually have Saturdays and Sundays off. Some how, working on Sundays has not set well with me.
So, there is my catch-up on what has been happening, now that I finally have caught on most things in my life, and now have a pretty good organized scheduling, hopefully get more writing done, and start putting some others in the place where they should be and letís all move forward. I once heard it said, the day is what you make it, even when you think youíve had a bad, there is still something good about it,
I look forward to getting back in touch with my friends from Yahoo 360, and hopefully make new friends on 360 and in my personal path of journeys that will hopefully take us to where we have goals achieved to our standpoint of pride.
Missed all you ďguysĒ
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