Blogs by Kerry Compton aka Star Girl
On Life, Love and Affairs of the Heart
1/28/2008 10:50:53 AM
Sometimes life isn't all that we had hoped that it would be...
I've loved before, you know. Actually twice in my life time. The first was to a man that I ended up marrying and spending 19 of the best years of my life with. It is a shame that we were married for 22. His denial and half truths ruined the last few years and the ultimate betrayal plunged the last dagger into the bleeding heart of what was left of our marriage.
I was left to pick up the pieces of my broken heart as the song so aptly states. I carefully glued them together and thought that they would hold...good as new. And then I met you. You were as dashing and charming as any leading man should be and I was more than willing to make you mine. And, for a very short time I guess that maybe you were... but the heart is a complicated and mysterious entity and just as I was willing to give you my all..you withdrew. Remember the pieces so carefully glued together? They have fallen apart once again...the sad thing is, is that it has been years now.
I think of you often and wonder if you are as happy in your new life as you appear to be when I see you. She is lovely, you know and your new son is beautiful...
I want you to know that I have tried again and again to take your advice...to move on and live a good life, but it is so very difficult and everytime that I think I have solved the mystery of love and the heart and that I have found love again..I am haunted... by your smile, and the memory of your scent. By the way that your eyes twinkled when you laughed. All of these memories coming rushing back at me and I am left breathless and unable to move on...
How I pray that someday I will be able to move on....
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