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Blogs by Stephen Kata
Excerpt
10/14/2011 8:47:49 AM
"I live in tranquility and trembling. Sometimes I dream. I am interested in Alice mainly when she eats
that cookie that makes her smaller. I would pare myself or be pared that I too might pass through
the merest crack, a gap I know is there in the sky. I am looking just now for the cookie. Sometimes
I open, pried like a fruit. Or I am porous as old bone, or translucent, a tinted condensation of the air
like a watercolor wash, and I gaze around me in bewilderment, fancying I cast no shadow. Sometimes
I ride a bucking faith while one hand grips and the other flails the air, and like any daredevil I gouge
with my heels for blood, for a wilder ride, for more.
"There is not a guarantee in the world. Oh your needs are guaranteed, your needs are absolutely
guaranteed by the most stringent of warranties, in the plainest, truest words: knock; seek; ask. But you
must read the fine print. “Not as the world giveth, give I unto you.” That’s the catch. If you can catch it,
it will catch you up, aloft, up to any gap at all, and you’ll come back, for you will come back, transformed
in a way you may not have bargained for—dribbling and crazed. The waters of separation, however lightly
sprinkled, leave indelible stains. Did you think, before you were caught, that you needed, say, life? Do you
think you will keep your life, or anything else you love? But no. Your needs are all met. But not as the
world giveth. You see the needs of your own spirit met whenever you have asked, and you have learned
that the outrageous guarantee holds. You see the creatures die, and you know you will die. And one day it
occurs to you that you must not need life. Obviously. And then you’re gone. You have finally understood
that you’re dealing with a maniac.
"I think that the dying pray at the last not “please,” but “thank you,” as a guest thanks his host at the door.
Falling from airplanes the people are crying thank you, thank you, all down the air; and the cold carriages
draw up for them on the rocks. Divinity is not playful. The universe was not made in jest but in solemn
incomprehensible earnest. By a power that is unfathomably secret, and holy, and fleet. There is nothing to
be done about it, but ignore it, or see. And then you walk fearlessly, eating what you must, growing wherever
you can, like the monk on the road who knows precisely how vulnerable he is, who takes no comfort among
death-forgetting men, and who carries his vision of vastness and might around in his tunic like a live coal which
neither burns nor warms him, but with which he will not part."
---Annie Dillard
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More Blogs by Stephen Kata
• Religious Arguments - Tuesday, January 24, 2012
• Woids - Thursday, December 08, 2011
• Games - Saturday, October 15, 2011
• Excerpt - Friday, October 14, 2011
• Writing - Sunday, August 21, 2011
• Perspective - Wednesday, August 03, 2011
• Quote for the day - Friday, July 29, 2011
• Involuntary Actions - Thursday, July 28, 2011
• Illegal Aliens - Monday, July 25, 2011
• A Sense Of Wonder - Monday, July 18, 2011
• Going Postal - Friday, July 15, 2011
• Postage Due - Thursday, July 14, 2011
• Communication - Tuesday, July 12, 2011
• What Is Your Life? - Thursday, July 07, 2011
• Quote - Wednesday, July 06, 2011
• Just ruminating - Wednesday, June 29, 2011
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