Come on, read what this says... There's nothing wrong with gasping!!!      

     I recall as a child, the many times I sat in the park crying my eyes out! Now 24 years old, it's still painful! I had a complicated childhood and always eavesdropping on my mother.  I secretively collected bits and pieces of information that I thought revealed her true feelings about me. Growing up, I was full of intensity and overwhelm with my beliefs. Deeply confused, I questioned everything and pondered how Mom really felt about me.  Being creative, I painfully interpreted the evidence gleamed from eavesdropping.  In time I suffered greatly from my mother's secret conversations.  Slowly that whittled away at my self-esteem, which was a horrible price to pay for my inappropriate listening. 
     As an intelligent pondering teenager, I engaged in risk-taking behaviors that further eroded my character.  I played on the edge of life, gasping and longing for the intensity of the unknown.  It was during this time that a young man was relentless in sharing what he believed was the true beauty of living.  You can't imagine that part of my life.  It was so unbelievable, totally unimaginable!  Still I found myself torn between two worlds. 
     Feeling fragmented as I left for college.  Being on my own, I longed to return to experiencing the unknown.  Surrendering to my intensity plunged me further into exploration.  I craved to taste it all, and each experience took me deeper into longing.
     Today it's shocking to look back at those experiences. I certainly don't desire to relive any of them.  Yet I never wish them away.  I desperately want to share the truth and raw details of my story.   But how open are you?  Can you surrender your beliefs long enough to be open and travel through my journey with  me?  Come on now, I need you to be open, intelligent, and willing to ponder everything... I need you to remember how it felt to be lost in an intensity that took you to pinnacle of yourself and left you suspended.  Want to experience things that you secretively already think about but don't want to admit?  Hey, you know those edges that play with your mind, like your sexuality, eclectic thinking, obnoxious mental ranting, and all those demons that taunt you? Relive my journey with me, but brace yourself!  I guarantee you'll be stretched and most of all shocked. 
     As the famous KIRKUS REVIEW tagged it, A REWARDING READ.   The story unfolds in the literary fiction novel: ALWAYS ENOUGH by L. K. Craft.   After you finish reading it ... take a few breaths and write the author, L. K. Craft.   Like the many who have already read it, how shocking and unpredictable was the storyline to you?  What did you learn about yourself in the reflection of what life dished me?  Remember, I want you to experience this heart wrenching story of discovery, unpredictability and amazing love ... after all, it's my story, but through reading it, you will be required to experience everything on my journey with me!   

(Written from Sue Martin's perspective, she's the main character in the literary novel: ALWAYS ENOUGH by L. K. Craft )