In the five years that I have been online, never thought I would see the impact I creatied with a site such as Writings From The Grave. Never thought that a site that was created by a 20 year old kid with an html book and a few shots of whiskey, while the parents were away in Europe on May 16th, 1997, would influence an entire subculture. It started just as a website with three short stories without any pictures then one page on WBS and tripod. Now here it is -- five years later and ten servers hosting parts of it being a full website and more than that -- being a forum for where I can post my photography and artwork. Three years without the support of a mainstream webserver this website of mine had got a following that I cannot even imagine -- fifteen English speaking nations in combined Europe and Asia, never thought it would come out that way. For the longest time people would think that it was a phase and I would give it up after a year -- it was my way of getting my writings and making them directly to the readers to get their hands on. I never thought that it would have such a rabid following among the heavy metal community but then again I am just a lucky fan of the thrash metal movement.
Heavy metal had always been a part of me -- even if I was not able to get into a band or form one of my own, I will always be one of those that had their fingerprints in something. I will always have my eyes open for new talent either in form of bands or for other writers. If there was a place where horror and heavy metal are banned, that is something that I would hate to be at because metal had been an influence on me as an artist and a poet. The nature of the website would always strike some kind of contraversy one way or another. I guess one community would bitch either way because they don't like what I do -- guess that is a given. It was the case when Black Sabbath came to the surface and when H.P. Lovecraft started writing -- same story but different characters. As it is in my themes -- the emotion of mankind would be afraid of what they don't understand. Columbine happened and with the colleague of mine forced underground I had to do something to pick up the slack -- making the site even darker and meaner did the trick. Now here in 2002 -- what does future hold of my site? It has a lot of acclaim when I went to GothCon this year and one of the places that made my presence felt was at the open mic.
What is in the eyes of the beholder and does the center hold?--the questions that were there when I started the writings of this website, from the time when I was taking Philosophy in college and how could a college drop-out create such a fire that cannot be killed. Or as they say, they cannot kill what doesn't want to die. I still feel like Dr. Frankenstein when I created this thing, it almost has a life of its own creeping in the darker end of the psyche beneath a black toothed grin.