One day after coming home from the library this title came into my head - The Secret Life of Ashley Miles. This title is what led me to write my first novel. After many, many months of writing (with a few hiatus breaks in between) my novel was finished. I was on my way to getting it published. All that I needed to do was edit it. And that proved to be the hardest part.
I have been editing the novel for a long time and even asked some people to read it and let me know their thoughts. They told me the novel was great and that they enjoyed it but they couldn’t offer any suggestions for improvement. I thought this meant the novel is perfect and can be published. Turns out I was wrong.
I was ready to upload everything to my publisher when I got feedback from another person who told me my novel needs a lot of work. And the way the feedback was presented, while it was constructive in part, it made me very upset, and made me feel like I've failed completely. This made me push the novel aside as if it didn’t matter to me anymore.
Now that I wasn't working on the novel anymore, I was left feeling empty and disappointed. My dream of publishing a novel had failed. I had failed. And I wasn't happy about it.
After some time had passed I realized I can't leave the novel. It matters to me, it's important to me, and I have to publish it. Before I can do that though I need to tighten it up. To do that I need help. The issue is finding someone who can actually read it and give constructive feedback on its improvement rather than just say it is good and that they enjoyed it. I need someone who will be constructive but in a way that won't put me down and make me want to quit again. I need someone who will actually encourage me and help me improve and/or tighten up the story and help me decide when it is time to finally put an end to editing and publish it.
I have asked a few people for help and they said they will help but then they never did. Why did they say yes if they never planned on helping me in the first place? That is just wrong.
One of my friends was able to look at the novel and spot all the grammar mistakes, typos and other such issues, which I am grateful for. Now I need someone who can help me on the actual story. I don't know what to do or who to turn to for help. I will never be at peace until I publish the novel.
I think my story is interesting and enjoyable and I think it will connect with readers and make a lasting impression but it is not perfect and I want it to be. I sure hope someone can help me here.