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by Emily G Fieldus

Thursday, February 26, 2009
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~ An Abusive Realtionship. "People say there is life after all this pain. I don’t know how much more I can take. I’ll silence my screams of agony… …And my wails and cries of how much my body aches…"

You showered me with compliments.
[And I bathed within them…]

You said nothing would ever tear us apart.
[And I agreed]

You made me feel like I was dreaming.
[Or was something else coming…?]

Then, as we got further into things, it all started to change.
[I only just turned fourteen, you know…]

You treated me with disrespect.
[I thought I deserved it…]

You treated me like I deserved hell.
[Do you remember when you said you wanted me dead…?]

You took me by the wrists, slammed me hard against the wall.
[The bruises are still there, you know…]

As I crumbled to the ground, you spat at me – your insults tearing at my heart.
[I believed them…]

You pressured me for sex.
[And I succumbed to it…]

You threatened me.
[I grew afraid and promised I wouldn’t go]

You toyed with my mind.
[And left me lost]

And you played with my emotions.
[To believe I couldn’t live without you]

You lied to me.
[And lost my trust]

You blamed me for things that weren’t even my fault.
[When all along, they were yours]

I thought I deserved better.
[You said I already have the best]

You used my words against me.
[Why must you keep pointing your finger at me…?]

I said I couldn’t take it anymore.
[You claimed that you did nothing]

When you saw me packing my bags, you clung desperately to me.
[And whispered into my ear how much you loved me]

And I said I
loved you, too…

…Save me from this hell…
…I can’t resume this abuse…
…I won’t show the scars…
…Proof of when you let loose…

…People say there is life after all this pain…
…I don’t know how much more I can take…
…I’ll silence my screams of agony…
…My wails and cries of how much my body aches…

…It’s only a matter of time before you break…
…Until then, I’ll ignore the bruises…
…Faded red, yellow, purple, and blue…
…And I’ll surely overuse the excuses…

…Through tear filled eyes, I’ll embrace you tonight.
…I’ll sing a silent song…
…I’ll plead to God, asking for another day…
…Of which I can escape this nightmare that's been haunting me for so long...

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January 31st, 2009 -:- Emily G. Fieldus

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Reviewed by Barbara Sue 3/7/2009
Emily..what terrible experiences, both physical and mental you have going on within you and to you. As others below, who have stopped by and commented, that first step has to be taken, to break away and never return to what you are now involved in. You, have to think of yourself, you are important, just remember that. You may not be able to see past the person who is harming you, mentally and physically, he probably blocks out everything else around you when he is in charge. I hope with all my might, that just once, you get up enough nerve to run, and never look back.. Don't hesitate, run like hell..

Barbara
Reviewed by J'nia Fowler 3/3/2009
I know if what you speak as I've been there. You pen this so well. You are the hero in this story and yes it does end and life can be wonderful again. I'm experiencing that as well. Keep writing it out and wring it out of all its pain. Blessings, J'nia
Reviewed by Karla Dorman, The StormSpinner 3/3/2009
(((Emily))),

How I wish I could reach through the screen and embrace you in a hug, let you know everything's going to be okay ... such sadness in these broken lines! I pray this is fictional, but have a feeling it's not ... there is too much pain for your words not to be real. Powerfully penned heartbreak. Well done.

(((HUGS))) and love, Karla. :(
Reviewed by Felix Perry 3/3/2009
No one reading this write could be unaffected by your pain, your sadness and your feelings of being alone...reach out though their are people who care and will help...strong voice above the pain.

Fee
Reviewed by Michelle Mead 3/2/2009
Wow-that is so raw and intense and brutally honest, all signs of good poetry, poetry that can touch others who really need to hear your message and who can then say, "I am not alone." I agree with Hank that you need to get out of that relationship if it is one you are still in, and that it is easy for outsiders to say, I have been in a verbally abusive relationship and I know how small it makes you feel when someone does this to you. I will be praying for you and I wish nothing but blessings of inner peace and protection for you.- Michelle
Reviewed by Hank Eder 2/27/2009
Such depth from someone so young. If you can transform this pain into words that help others like you, you have taken a great step forward. But also, please get out of the abusive relationship. You do deserve so much more. Speak to an adult you trust -- a teacher, a minister, a relative -- and start the hard road to recovery. There is a great book on co-dependent relationships, "The Road Less Traveled." The title comes from the Robert Frost poem, "Two roads diverged in a wood, and I took the one less traveled by, and it has made all the difference."

Best wishes to you.
Reviewed by Carin Spirit 2/26/2009
Dear Emily,
Don't ignore the bruises, get to the hospital and tell someone, they will make you safe. You are too precious to endure. There are so many options out there, don't do this alone, I've have seen the fatal results, it happens 500 times in a single day and it can happens in just one moment. Domestic Violence is not a game. Be Well, Carin
Reviewed by Edwin Hurdle 2/26/2009
This is a very well written poem.If this is true,then you deserve so much better in your life and you deserve to be happy and get rid of people in your life that has caused you so much pain.take care

Edwin
Reviewed by Elizabeth Hobbs 2/26/2009
Hi Emily
If your words aren't fiction, look forward - never back. Be well, Liz
Reviewed by Karen Palumbo 2/26/2009
Oh you sweet thing, yes there is life after the pain. You walk away stronger, whole and with your head held high. I know because I have been there and the sun does shine very brightly too. The first step is always the hardest, each step there after gets easier as you grow stronger....

Be always safe,
Karen

Be always safe,
Karen
Reviewed by Gene Williamson 2/26/2009
What a powderful, moving, terribly sad situation, so well
written that it has to be real, and yet I hope it is not.
-gene.
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