My foolish mind
made a reality of it's own kind.
It took what wasn't true
and assigned it all to you.
I believed in the picture you painted of you
the perfect man I believed it true .
I made you loving and able
truthful and stable.
I gave you strength of will
and a peaceful mind so still.
When what I gave you didn't add up
I added yet a measure of innocence to your cup.
As the world treated you unfair
I gave you my strength to share.
By doing so I magnified all your illusions
until one day reality made it's intrusion.
On the image I built of my dream
of you the way I wanted you to seem.
I remembered stories told
that didn't match once unfold.
I remembered promises you gave
that never came through in any way.
You blamed failure on all but you
suffered anxiety attacks as I held you.
You shifted blame and do it still
while my strength you slowly kill.
I'm turning in to her, the one you left behind.
As I try to sort out your mind.
I try to stay on my own two feet
though tempting it is with defeat.
I want to be able to reconstruct as I go
to avoid blaming you so.
But I lost that power with my belief in you
now I don't think a word you say is true .