You’re my dear dad who, due to a cancer blow,
I was not lucky to love and to get to know -
You’re far away in heaven
Where I cannot see you again.
Your death left me virtually devastated.
Part of me died with you surely.
After all these years gone and hated
I still find your loss unbearable
My soccer games you didn’t attend
Where I loved to compete and contend
You didn’t take me hunting, fishing
Mountain climbing or outdoor camping
My school teachers you didn’t meet
To learn how I did in the classes’ elite
A spruce with me you didn’t cut down
As our Christmas tree to be the best in town.
You were not there for me, your lad
When I was in trouble sick, or sad
You didn’t walk with mom into the hall
On my wedding day to smile and stand tall.
I had to be the man
With no man around
To teach me how to be one.
No boy deserves to be bound
To such tough challenges’ cruel gun.
My tormented ecstasy on Father’s Day -
I smile to my kids and a happy image I portray
With no dad of mine to see grow old and gray
Why did you have to die?
I was only four years old –
Definitely too young to cry.
When I look up at the sky at night
I see a beautiful star glowing bright.
I know you are that star
Letting me know from afar
Watching over me – you are.
That’s when I strongly feel
Your love for me is very real -
Father’s and son’s enduring seal!
Though I will always be the boy
Whose love for you is my sad joy
The time has come for me
To say “Goodbye”.
Finally your death I have accepted!
I will go on proud with my life
Be the man - to be I was destined
Enjoying the happiness I deserve.