I read the words
Your words
And before I could breathe
Tears slipped down my cheeks
And I recall
How cold and immature I was
How afraid I was
How afraid I still am
Afraid that I have lost you forever
That my shadow has chased you away
It was what I desired
But not what was right
I am selfish
Selfish to do this again and again
You say you love me
But remember, darling
Love takes time
Your intensity scared me
More than I knew
And made me hide
I don’t know how I feel
But I’m not ready to give you up
Please don’t go
I want to say so much to you
And tell you how sorry I am
For tricking you without knowing it
For tricking myself without knowing it
Don’t leave me yet
Let me explain
And then it will be up to you
Whether to leave the one who doesn’t deserve you
Or stay and humor the child
The child with salty tears