I feel nothing….
I feel nothing because you no longer excite me.
I figured out that I feel nothing for you because of what he did to me.
You look at me and I look away because it’s the look that he gave me and it’s so hard to take and I see his eyes when really it’s yours but he’s still got my mind hypnotized that I'm never going to be anything.
I no longer know what I feel inside cause it’s just emptiness that’s endless.
Please don’t talk to me cause I will tune you out.
‘Cause you speak and I should be hearing you but it’s him and all I can hear is the ignorance that flows from his lips, lessons learned from his upbringing.
And don’t wear that scent again because it’s a mixture of her, his sweat and whatever they drank from the top shelve from the bar. That aroma scares me senseless cause I know that he hates me after he’s been with her cause he will touch me violently.
Minutes turn into hours and after many baths and showers I can taste my blood, from his unnecessary touching, in my bruised and batter mouth. Hours later I realize that I was still sitting in the corner wrapped in that same towel, tears in my eyes staring into yesterday, wondering why I can’t let go of all of those shattered, battered memories.
Here he comes to touch me again but its different because it’s not him it’s a loving touch from you and you join me at that spot on the floor and we stay there for hours you wiping my tears as my memories fade away like the wind, while you hold me trying hard to help me heal my scars and reawaken my SENSES!