So many years
So many tears
Tangible, plausible years
Tears of joy
Tears of sorrow
Tears of anger
Look for the morrow
The knife wrenching and twisting
Ripping, gutting, remains spilt
Married to the one true and fast
Loneliness a wicked spouse
Harsh and cold, aloof at best
Enveloping at worst
Happiness mocks all that is done
Known only to derive itís worth
From the angst of the chosen
Pegged at birth, primed in youth
Destined to be great at solitude
Is there no sunrise for me to attach my dreams to?
Is there no rainbow to hold my heartís delight?
Is there no wave to carry my hopes to you?
Has fate dealt a crooked hand?
Stop the world, I want to get off.
Iím so frightened of being alone.
Who will love me?
Who will become breathless at the sight of me?
Who shall touch me in passion heretofore unknown?
Our star, so cleverly hidden behind clouds of doubt and fear.
Will I ever know this love inside my heart?
A love so pure, so precious, I dare only dream it.
How I have imagined the possibilities day after day.
My mind wanders to thoughts of pleasure and joy
To ease the pain I feel suffocated by.
You live your life, you follow your heart,
You honor your commitment.
And I? I regret our lips never touched -
For one kiss would end years of sadness.
The very lifeblood would flow so freely,
None could stop it, would be futile to try.
One kiss, one night, two passions, one united soul.