Growing up to find you have never found true love,
Was the best and worse sensation that I now write of.
For I have helped so many and loved so very few,
No one will ever understand the pain now as I do.
The love I had that burned for you so deep inside of me,
Was the only one I longed for, just hoping it would be.
This love that I felt and gave to you, filling a void in my life
Now haunts my heart daily, cutting deeper like a knife.
You held my heart like a hand grenade, just waiting to explode,
As I waited, too quietly (?), for your other curiosities to erode.
But as the months slowly dragged by, I should have really seen,
I was wasting time wondering what may and could have been.
I now find myself askingÖ to deserve this, what did I do?
The loneliness and the pain that I must now go through.
All I ever did was love you, and care for you so much,
Always waiting patiently and simply longing for your touch.
I guess I didnít listen to you as you tried not to offend
All you wanted from me was a true and dear best friend.
Now as I try to bury my hurt, trying to forget my foolish past
I canít help feeling that itís really true Ö Nice guys finish last.
It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone, when your heart still does. -- Mallory Jones