If the Creator had chosen
at the time of my beginning
to make of me
or a house
a stone or bird...
never knowing the which
or the why--
having no idea
I stand day on day
to shade and hush you
make melody of rain and wind
while the screen of my presence
veils you from the world
my leaves illuminate
glow you green and soft
until one day you notice
here and there,
in my way, that is always quiet
that asks for nothing,
I have gone.
You see that now the sun enters your room
at a new angle,
warms the floor at your feet,
while squirrels ruckus upon your roof
tapping tiny invectives above you.
Your teapot screams a perfect high E
and for the slightest of moments,
you wonder at the why of it--
but of course, you know the answer--
it 's what trees do, what squirrels do
that's what the sun does, every year.
The bird's chirping search for seed
reminds you this is the "Gets-fat-moon"
or so the Indians have said
and they should know--
These things you have read of them
in your chirping soul's search for seed
to grow fat upon, before Winter.
But of all this I will have known nothing.
Not candor of quiet leaving
...nor holiness of arms out-stretched naked
against pewter sky~
Nor arc of cobalt majesty
managed with the simplest flick of wing.
The gleaming bead of my eye clicking now
in the cold light as I catch a glimpse
of your man shape in the glass.
It frightens me,
and in my panic
I rush for your face
I dive into your eyes
absorbed into stone.
and if I feel anything being stone,
perhaps it is the weight of the house
( that I also could be)
that stands upon me,
pressing me slowly
into the earth I am becoming--
or thud of foot fall
running from room to room...
perhaps, in my rockish way
I hear these things
though sounds mean nothing
to a stone or the house that contains them.
Though you abandon me, leave me derelict upon a hilltop
my windows cracked and curtains tattered--
Cries cannot move me
nor blood displace me.
Not even your blood, most precious.
I absorb you back into me.
It is there we will meet again
at the place of God's imagining.