I have come back to Earth, Heavens can’t stand separation,
Sorrow shrouds the Sun, barring its warmth to the soul.
When you are not there, the Paradise frowns with frustration,
Behold, it is I, who’s heart was forever afflicted by love!
It was aching with passion even at times of despair,
Even when there wasn’t anybody around to crave,
That susceptible heart is now gone, Earth, you may not be aware,
Please, forgive me for denying you my earthly grave.
Grave is small for the heart that endless expanses adored,
That was burning forever in blazing inferno of love,
And, when turned to the ashes, the ocean vastness explored,
Carried out to sea under cloudy skies up above.
Overwhelmed by the freedom that life never gave it,
What was left of the heart new beginning enjoyed,
But the roses don’t grow on the graves
Of the ones that in life never got them,
And you know that I was in life never loved.
So I roam the World as a bodiless, sad apparition,
Haunting places that in my past did belong,
Meeting no familiar faces in utter frustration,
Where all of the people who loved me have gone?
People walk down the streets, unaware of my silent presence,
Or, perhaps, they just want this unlikable presence be gone.
They know not that the Earth used to be in my sole possession
Long before they were born to this world under Sun.
And I loved it so much, ‘cause nobody can love more than lonely.
Now I walk down the bridge, long and narrow, to meet with the grove
Where once I was dreaming of meeting my one and only,
Who would never appear to share his love.
There was never a heart in which I would get peace and compassion
There was not one embrace where love’s fire glowed,
I was destined to travel to God’s gilded mansion
To find meaning of love beyond clouds that sailed up above.
Wept the Ghost in the mist of the dawn with invisible tears
For the love by the earthly existence denied:
Why deprived me of love? It cried out without any fear
To the Mighty Creator who over the Heavens presides.
“We just wanted to know the limit of human affliction,
Of the people who with solitude never break”.
Hear it, Earth, here’s the reason for my sad condition:
He just wanted to see how much of torment I could take!
But I never gave up and continued to chase my desire,
Bumps and bruises aplenty, convulsing with pain.
But evasive delight just kept feeding the fire
And I charged it head on to be kicked back again and again.
Here’s the tree under which I would spend lonely hours,
Waiting for my beloved, who was not in a rush to arrive.
Here’s the tree that I hugged with such passion and power
That it threw blooming petals at my feet to die.
(For my faith in the one who was already gone).
And its yellow leaves were impudent, forthright indications
That the time had arrived to depart from my nebulous world.
Wait, out there, his eyes full of deep admiration
Just appeared the one who my heart so greatly deserved.
Could it be? Is it him, who I waited year in and year out?
Yes shine like sapphires, like stars in the veil of the night.
Pretty smile on his face.
Come to me, love, don’t have any doubts,
Hold me close to your heart, you’re not late, I’m here, I’m alive.
It is I, take a look, never mind the exotic exterior,
I’m transparent, but that’s how I hide from the pain.
Put your lips on my cold face,
Warm me up with your heart that’s so near,
I’m the soul filled with love you for years have chased!
By Liana Margiva
Translated from Russian by Anatol Kardiukov