I look upon your grave stone and wonder if from some where
you are watching me.
Have you wondered why it took me so long to return to this
your final resting place.
I am sorry for getting so angry for so long I know you never
meant to hurt me.
That pain you carried for so long just got to much for you
to bare alone.
I did not mean to cry at your grave side does this make up
for not crying at your funeral.
I saw you in the open casket it did not really look like
it was you laying there.
I saw them lower you to the earth thinking your family
are to blame.
I was more concerned with hating them wondering will
they be punished.
My tears blur my vision as I picture your cheeky smiling
I got you again grin.
Why did I forget that and all the other little things that made
you so special.
I went of and joined the army I told myself you where
gone consigned to a past.
But I am back hear today to let myself actually miss you
and morn you.
I hope you can hear me and you have found your peace
I don't want to be angry any more