Sometimes I feel,
in this life I do not fit.
That who I am as a person,
Is simply not enough.
That my value as a person
Is based upon my gender.
To serve for one purpose
the rest of me just humored.
I never knew before,
that people could be this way.
To dismiss good thoughts or ideas
because from whom they came.
To pretend that you were useful
For respectful thoughts or work
To only find in the end
What really they did want.
That your mind and heart are to be discounted
Unimportant, useless matter
That your here to serve in body
Selfish whims, physical in nature.
They come to allure you,
And play on your own self value
that you count as a person
your blind to their true desire.
You think you see the good in all
When most all your life you have
and you never fathomed wolves
Disguised as common men.
The truth be told,
Any wolf holds far more honor.
A wolf would never trick or lie
in attemts to bed a she, for slaughter.
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Rantings ~ Searching & Sorting out things I find inside of myself.
We all have in life "Issues"
Sometimes we can hide them from even ourselves.
Sometimes, it takes something, someone to "trigger" them for us.
Many times, they stay hidden, even with triggers, until we are ready.
Ready to face them. Until we have taken the steps to get to a place that we are ready to face , sort out and deal with them.
A conversation with a freind of mine, helped show me
That this is one of my issues!
So, heres to dealing, and healing!
And just a note, I do not feel this way about all men.
There are many men of Honor.
There are also Women without.
I Strive not to condem myself to a heart that does not trust
Or any men that I should meet based on pasts unjust.
I strive only to heal my heart, from all anger or harmful feelings
I strive to improve my sight,
So I may see clear visions.
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