I turn inside myself, aching every inch.
I donít know why God hates me?
Do I really give a shit?
He left me in this hole with half of me outside.
My Father is going crazy, dare I wonder why.
My sister is in the bathroom.
Slapping black makeup on her face.
I have Ozzy in my ears drowning out the pain.
My brother plays with He-man.
Papa holds him on his lap.
Dad is now my Mommy.
Devils flew us from her sight.
Masquerading as angelís holding large flashlights.
Inside my head there is a world,
No one knows about.
I go there very often.
Thatís where I scream aloud.
Father is going crazy, dare I wonder why.
My Mother knew it when I was a baby.
Kept it to herself.
He held that knife so closely.
Scaring little feet that seen them.
When they thought no one was around.
It is no doubt inside me.
He really is insane.
He shows his love so blindly.
I better do the same.