I think of our last words to one another,
and the anger I felt towards you,
I remember you reached out to me one last time.
You said, let me come over and make love to you.
As if that would have changed what you’ve done
As if that would make it all better.
She was the straw that broke this camels' back.
After so many years of love that I gave you.
But you lied and hurt me deeply.
And I built a steel wall to keep you out.
I had to protect myself from your evil,
your lies, your women, your deceit, your lines.
I never really stopped loving you,
because my love for you is real.
I think of our history filled with love and hate.
A friendship that turned into a life long affair.
An affair that lasted 30 long years.
So much we shared… I believed you cared.
I was wrong to believe such a thing.
I was just a number that you kept selecting,
Because I rocked your world like no one could.
An affair that devoured my time and heart.
A relationship that seemed so right from the start.
An affair that left me broken and disillusioned.
I reminisce of your sexy smile and warm dark eyes,
and how you walked towards me with that devilish smile.
The way you’d take me in your arms and held me close.
Your lips on my skin as I surrendered to you my all…
I reminisce of waking up next to you in the morning,
and how your boyish face grabbed a hold of my heart.
I reminisce of all the good and happy times we shared.
And how once for you was never enough.
Our secrets and tender moments together.
Hours on the phone, a lifetime in my heart.
Meeting at our favorite restaurant and other places.
To steal a little time together for these two hearts.
You were all I ever needed to be happy.
You breathed life into my world and me.
I loved you totally and unconditionally.
It wasn’t enough for you, I see.
You liked my ‘oh’ and how I giggled.
How I looked over my shoulder and smiled.
You called me a virtuoso. It’s true , but just for you.
We’d get lost in each other’s arms for hours.
That was easy to do because I loved you.
Lust, desire, passion…love and hate.
Is a part of our history together from our younger days.
All of which she could never, ever replace.
We have too much history for you to dismiss me.
I especially enjoyed sharing my younger years with you.
Sharing, laughing, loving and even fighting with passion.
So many firsts between us; you even gave me something good.
As memories of our times together still tears me apart.
My tears still fall freely with a deep pain in my heart.
If only I had put my pride aside and let you stay.
I miss you and love you still today.