Have you any idea,
How much I enjoy being shined on by your happy rays?
Are you aware,
That I can't help but stare,
Anytime you're in the same room?
Maybe If I really were in love,
I would sacrifice all just to be with you.
To go for it even though I know,
I would be hurting him too,
And that is something I cannot do,
SO maybe I AM just infatuated,
Or have a crush, as some might say,
In any case, now that it has been stated,
I am sure embarrassed that I feel this way,
Especially towards someone he loves. And will probably marry one day.
Why would I mistake your kindness,
For anything other than just being a friend?
I knew all along you loved only Him,
And still I had to go down that path,
Say things that could later wound,
Or at least damage what we all have,
For that alone I should be doomed.
My perspective has changed a bit,
I feel I am at a crossroads somehow and that,
In some sort of way,
I better do something about it,
If I'm not happy with her today,
After all this time I must admit,
My failure and then quit,
and get busy finding out a way,
To depart from this life I have today,
and try to start out again,
Will I be happy then?
Thom B. Williams