I want to scream because I can’t tell which way to go.
I want to yell because I feel as if I’m in a black hole
I want to fight because of the anger I have inside
I want to die because life is but a lie
I want I want I want this is all the only word that I can say.
But the outcome of the word is my life each day.
I don’t want to scream because it gets me nowhere
I don’t want to yell because I know life is unfair
I don’t want to fight because my hands are too precious to scare
I don’t want to die because I’ve made it thus far.
I feel that this road will lead me somewhere
Somewhere at the end I will lose all these fears
Somewhere where I can be free and live life unknown
Somewhere where my life is upbeat and never controlled
Somewhere far where no on knows me
Somewhere where the roads aren’t hazy and fuzzy
Somewhere I say yet again and again
But the day this will come will all be the end
Will I get the chance to do as I please?
Maybe travel the world with such a ease
Or skydive out of a plane enjoy the sites as the birds and bees
Or find that man that will fall to his knees
All questions I can only answer.
A life of waiting feels like a disaster
Because the answers are unclear to me.
Maybe it’s all not meant to be
Answers to questions that I don’t know, feeling left out alone in the cold.
Tell me now and forever more that this is not the life, I feel so scorned.
But at the end of the day I’m grateful for what I have
People who love me, and a learning past.
I want all these things and much much more
But what day will I find that door.