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Fly Away Dear Mother
by Jodee C Kulp
Thursday, February 21, 2008
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A lost child finding safety in the county detox

Good morning dear Mother
- I am safe
- I did not die
though I wanted to,
hoped to
and almost tried.

But I stopped
myself
because you taught me how important living is.
And I want to live.

And not be bound
by all the trappings
of my mind that spirals down into abyss
      twirling and
         swirling and
            spinning until


I am small
     so very
       very small and


alone


and only alcohol takes away the pain -
like when I began in a liquored sea under my mother's heart.

I stopped myself mother
     because you took me from a place 
    of empty arms into your home and
    into your heart and
          you poured everything you had to give into me
- to help me and now I want to change and grow again
- to get up from where I have fallen back and back and down.

Pray for me mom
- that I find another man
- I cannot be alone at night for I am scared
- so scared to be alone
      and so I go alone to where a friend stays and never leaves
- an old friend I met not long ago but for always
- my bottle friend
- who comes when I am in pain

- to relieve my mind
         of the twisting and
               turning and
                   twirling.


It does not let go because
I come back to open the cap
    and drink
        the drink


and feel the forgetfulness I seem to need
when nothing matters anymore
and I cannot go on,
     but then I must.

I must wake up
     and I want to live
     and not continue in such a way as I have done once again
- once again
      I fell so hard
     but this time I saved myself


not you
mom not you chasing me
- finding me
- picking me up from places you have never been,
nor would ever go because of who you are.

But you went
- each time before because of me.
Because you loved me
- you came to find your little one
- lost, hurt and alone..

So mom I called you this morning.
Because I know that you're love is real
and you do not forget the little girl
      who did work a job
         and did graduate from high school
         and did learn to do so many things


others said I could not do.
But I could.


And I can do them again -
I can you will see.
I will try to fly again.
Perhaps there is another way.

This place is safe mom -
     you put me here first to keep me safe 
     when I was just a fledgling adult
- a child really now I know,
      but I am 21 and oh so much wiser
- perhaps.

Perhaps not.
I dunno.

I asked for help to come where I knew
    I would be kept safe
         and warm
         and cared about
a place where people like me with no one come when they are scared and alone

- those who come regularly call this place heaven.

Those who live on the street 
   and under bridges
   and sleep with plastic bags for quilts.


Once again I see my dad, the man who gave me life
- yellow and withered
- here in the place he told me was heaven
- county detox
- his life so hard.


He's over 50 and he still has not learned to read!

I cannot call it heaven mom for I have a home
- an apartment -
I have a family and 13 birds that call me their mother
- birds of every color of the rainbow
      that sing me to sleep
          and wake me in the morning to their songs.

What will happen to my birds mom?

Will you come and care for them
  and keep them safe and warm while I am here
- becoming once again the me I lost
- the me lost to the bottle before I was even born.

I want to fly mom.
I want to fly fly away and be safe.
Life is so hard
....but I won't quit.

Perhaps we can all pray
    for all our young people with FASDS who try so hard.

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Reviewed by Andre Bendavi ben-YEHU 3/25/2008
I like what I read here through the lines of "Fly Away Dear Mother".

In admiration,

Andre Emmanuel Bendavi ben-YEHU
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