With every I love you; you might say, lately you make me think twice. Confused by your actions and lack of words it often fills me with spite. To know your feelings are lost in the air might be hurt but more confused. I often feel like a victim because lately I feel so used, some might feel abuse is too strong but mind games are, just that. Inside your entrapment and entangled by your words; I linger inside deep and exposed wondering and pondering my next move or the steps needed for the next stage of this what should I call it? A relationship or a shaded cage
Back and forth and around we go this relationship is such a mess. I may be too much and yes I do often have to fuss. But in me you should always trust. That you give me for this one sided act you pretend not to notice. Letting go is what I ask for, and more importantly it’s what I need, you need, we need. With your past this thing can not last, you have to think fast, my love is no test and by now my heart is limitless because you have pushed and pushed so over the ledge I go. Out of bounds and on edge what more can I do? Just like you ask me, standing here before you, I gave you my all and maybe for the next session there will be nothing left. And with all these actions hanging in the air still it seems not to be enough, so decide now can you make it last and give more than half of you to this commitment filled with many stings and many indescribable things that has forcefully jolted us into this unparalleled triumph we call relating all in the process of debating this misused verse of a word reintegrating Relation, maybe the ship has sailed bringing this wreck to its end. If only I can begin again, I would clearly be able to see the ocean filled depths of this uncharted path and mercifully unwritten accident I describe as relating to you.
A PUPPET MASTER