I Wasn't Through
by Lisa Hilbers
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Rated "G" by the Author.
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I Wasn’t Through
The wounds of your passing are still fresh,
they seep with the salty tears of grief-
I sat here in the quiet and darkness remembering your
infectious smile; Your joyous laughter-
and I also smiled; For it was you my friend,
that taught me how, even when times were rough
You gifted me so much throughout the years,
Not only friendship, but you showered me with
the love and devotion like I had never been given before.
You’ve been gone less than a day, and I miss you so much.
How can a world this big become so small, so quickly?
Yes, I know I promised not to cry,
but I just wasn’t ready; I wasn’t through yet-
I wasn’t through sharing conversations and emails,
photos of our grandchildren and bragging for hours and
hours on in-
Darn it, I just wasn’t through- I wasn’t through-
…and I never will be
Rest In Peace, My Friend; Sleep Tight
© Lisa Hilbers
May 2, 2007
When I found out you were gone from this world, I instinctively ran outside to see if I could watch you go, but just as I thought, I was too late.
I stood in the misty rain that had been falling here all day long, and as it gathered on my face, it began to mix with my many tears of grief. Oh Friend I will miss you so.
You were just so special. Besides being my bestest friend ever, in the whole wide world, you were also and foremost a Great Mother, to your children, a wonderful Grandmother to your grandchildren, and a delightful person just to be around. You had a wonderful sense of humor, and you were loved as much as you loved others. And you will be missed in the same degree.
I sat here all day flipping through the numerous pages of memories we shared. Remembering the hundreds of hours we sat in front of our computers on Yahoo chat, discussing everything imaginable and few things that were only imaginable to us, and us alone. I remembered how we met, when we met, and all the glorious joy that moment allowed me through the years.
Although I know I told you many many times, I just needed to say it again, even if I do truly know you will never see this letter.
You were always there when my world was darkest and coldest, and you were the one that always brought me back from my deepest states of depression, time after time again. Dear Friend, I thank you from the bottom of my heart and soul. I thank you for being my Best Friend.
I’m so grateful I got to meet you, and set face to face and drink coffee and talk for the hours that we did, and laugh about the fact that your kids loved you enough to want to make sure I wasn’t a crazed (cereal)
serial killer, because we met online. I loved them for that, because they made sure you were safe.
Well, Darn it Deb, I guess I’d best close for now, I know you have lots to do with getting acquainted with your new angel friends, and besides my keyboard it soaked with tears so I gotta’ go dry it.
I’ll always love and miss you!
Your Bestest , Bestest Friend,
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|Reviewed by Regis Auffray
|This goes to the depth of the soul. Love and peace to you, Lisa. Regis|
|Reviewed by Retta (Reindeer) Mckenzie
|This is one of the most beautiful poems I have ever read, so perfectly expressed, my heart goes out to you in your time of loss.
|Reviewed by jude forese
|"my words are but dust but my spirit is with you"|
|Reviewed by E. Richardson
|losing someone close is always sad...but you have written a fitting dedication to that love in this extraordinary piece.|
|Reviewed by Kathryn Collins
I'm also in tears. Your feelings are heartfelt and unfortunately too familiar. Words will never heal you just rest in the arms of the others who love you.
|Reviewed by Paul Berube
Nothing can make the pain go away but be a little at ease knowing that it's not the end for your friend but only the beginning. Always cherish those fond memories of her until you both meet again. Sorry for your loss my friend. Always, Paul.
|Reviewed by Karen Palumbo
|Oh, what a heartfelt, emotional time this is for you! You have me in tears just reading it. Am so very sorry for your loss.
|Reviewed by Sherry Heim
|There are no words to soothe the burning pain that cuts to your core, Lisa, so I will simply say that my prayers are with you and that I too, know loss, and don't it hurt!
Blessings on you, my friend,
|Reviewed by Joyce Bowling
|This is such a difficult time...I am so sorry for your loss! In 1996 I lost my best friend...I found myself picking up the phone to call her each time something funny happened, or when something sad happened and sometimes for no reason at all...I dreamed about her for monthes, it was so hard to realize that she wasn't one mile away or a telephone call away...but time and prayer helped ease the pain so that I could enjoy my memories of her and look forward to seeing her in heaven someday! You are in my prayers....
|Reviewed by Tinka Boukes
|OMG I am so sorry to read this.....warm hugs Sis!!
You are in my prayers Lisa!!
Love Tinka (tears)
|Reviewed by Barbara Smith
|Lisa, I'm sorry for your sadness & I know that lonesome feeling of seeing, hearing, feeling, and loving someone oh so special! One who could make you laugh, cry, and bring about comfort. My prayers are with you...hugs, bear hugs, & feelings!!|
|Reviewed by Laura Mayer
I am so sorry for the loss of your best friend. My prayers go out to you during this extremely difficult time.
|Reviewed by Jeanette Cooper
|We never are through when a loved one dies. I think of all the questions left unanswered that I wish I might have asked one or both of my parents. Strangely, my need to know is greater now than when they lived. I wonder why? Is it because I know the questions can never be answered now? You've written a very nice tribute to your friend.|
|Reviewed by Linda Hill
|(( Lisa )),
I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. When I read your poem and letter to Debbie, it brought me back in time to a friend of mine named Shelia. She was also my best friend. We worked together at a nursing home. She got cancer and after much chemo and hard days and sadness, she passed away. I will never forget her. I love her very much, she also was a wonderful mother and caring wife. Thank you for this compassionate write, my friend.
|Reviewed by Karla Dorman, The StormSpinner
I'm so sorry for your loss. (((HUGS))) Is there anything I can do? If so, let me know--powerfully penned heartbreak.
(((HUGS))) and love, Karla.
|Reviewed by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado
|Heartwrenching; I am sorry for your loss. You're in my prayers!
Very well done; brava!
(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in Burleson, Karen Lynn. :( >tears! <