Love in the Online Lane
by Lisa M Tidrow
Friday, July 26, 2002
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Love in the Online Lane
I met you my first day on the internet,
It was your sense of humour that caught my eye!
You struck up a conversation with me,
And I was hooked.
I wasn’t looking for anything but company,
But you gave me a whole lot more than that.
After a week you told me that you loved me,
But I was scared.
I told you that I was probably going to…
Well, they were probably going to amputate my leg,
You said you didn’t care.
We didn’t exchange photos
Because you said it stands in the way of getting to know each other.
Sometimes it was so easy.
You would send me poetry
And chat with me until the sun came up,
In your country, in mine it was still night.
You would send me 20 emails a day,
Telling me how much you loved me.
And I was happy, but still scared
I had been through so much
And I felt unlovable
How was it that someone like you
Could love me?
Sometimes it was so hard.
When we arranged to meet online,
And you weren’t there
My imagination went into overdrive,
None of it good!
Sometimes I would get hurt at the things you'd say.
I couldn’t hear the inflection in your voice,
Which would have told me you were joking.
I was already traumatized and oversensitive.
But you sat me down (so to speak)
And explained the need to make what we write clear
Because we didn’t have the body language,
Which makes up so much of what we say.
I knew I loved you.
I knew I knew you well.
My friends said I was crazy,
My family said I was insane.
“How do you know he’s not a serial killer?”
“You haven’t even seen him”
All valid points, but I knew.
When you sent me roses and a teddy bear for my birthday,
When you sent me flowers in hospital,
After every surgery.
When you were always there to encourage me,
Even though you told me not to worry,
Bad surgeons always buried their mistakes *lol*
We spoke on the phone.
It was a shock to hear your American accent.
Even though I knew, I wasn’t expecting it.
You said my accent was really cute
And I told you that yours was rather grating.
You laughed at that!
Finally I could hear your inflections
And most importantly those magical words in my ear,
“I love you”
But still we met on the internet
Our computers melding as our minds met
Finally I made a reservation to go and see you.
My heart was filled with trepidation.
But what was that….
It was also filled with hope.
Hope, where there had been only hopelessness.
As my plane drew closer my heart beat faster
Until finally I was there
And in your arms
You were so tall, a foot taller than me.
And I still loved you, I knew I would.
You were everything I hoped for,
All my dreams come true .
And what’s more I was all your dreams too.
Now it’s six years later and we’ve been married for five.
Was I crazy?
Did I do the right thing?
I thank God for stumbling across you
On the internet that day.
You came at a time when I needed you most
And you have never let me down.
I’m yours forever, unconditionally,
All because you said,
That you loved me.