I have tried to save her all my life.
She says it’s harming her marriage now.
All this time and so much is lost.
She could have been a better person
had they all listened to me then.
I tried to spare her from herself.
I tried to tell them about the drinking,
the pills, the cover-ups at the holidays.
I stopped covering it up and they still
tried to cover it for me as if the secret
was safe with me in my own house.
My life was altered and forever changed
when they all gave up on her addiction.
I was a little girl with a broken mommy.
I just wanted to fix her to make her better
so we would have a better tomorrow.
I tried so hard to save her all of my life
yet now my sister says we have to do
something. After all this time?
The damage is done and there’s little
room for repair. Yet I am asked to step
up and confront her again - years of
acceptance and self-therapy telling myself
I am better because of this reality I was
raised in. I am stronger because I have
a broken parent. Accepting the fact that
they all gave up on our mother and I never
did. I kept trying and trying to save her and
now they want me to step in again? When
does it become too late? When is Enough?
To save my sister's marriage after so much was
lost... Lost in the denial of living their own lives
and not having to deal with my childhood.
I was the little girl with the broken mommy and
I just wanted to fix her and make her better.