Useless

I knew by your look

How fastly I learned

Although a young child

Fear was concerned

Breath drenched in whiskey

Eyes bloodshot red

The stare crumbled mountains

Just tremble instead

I don’t know the rules

I know not what to say

I tread lightly and quiet

But how it decays

For I think when I breathe

That’s all that it takes

For worthless you said

I am nothing to make

Born just a bastard

Not wanted by one

Useless to all

And to anyone

As my tears well

No matter to you

It angers you more

No compassion have you

Why are you angry

What have I done?

I have given you smiles

And given you hugs

I’ve said that I love you

But words do not touch

For some reason I’m hated

Too young to know much

I won’t say a word

As in bed I lay still

Praying for safety

For whatever your ills

I have learned invisibility

I have learned to know fear

Is this what you wanted?

My father so dear

But I will still love you

Although you not me

Tears I will hide

Please just don’t hurt me

Carolee Dennis-Woosley

May 9, 2012