I was ten, and I had been summoned.
I don't remember what small infraction had
worked its way to the top and back down again
to me, but I had been summoned and I went.
Awkward, dry-mouthed, I stood before his desk.
The words came:
Bone dry words, rubbing together in the quiet
afternoon, faint dusty trails in the antiseptic air
marking their passage.
Mute, bemused I stood, losing all meaning
as the droning sounds, louder now, chewed the
words to sawdust and blew them at me.
I could see the larger flakes layering in random
drifts on the sterile green carpet. The smaller flecks
made patterns on my brand new shoes.
In an agony of thirst, I dreamed of rain.
My tongue toured my desert mouth seeking
an oasis hidden somewhere behind my teeth.
I fought the urge to sneeze,
unthinkable here where
one spark from a tickling nostril
would ignite the sawdust, blow up this office,
and perhaps the whole school in some kind of
dust-inspired chain reaction.
The sawing stopped. He was through.
Mumbling something, anything, I escaped,
and as the door closed behind me,
he sneezed.
In a panic, I fled down the hall,
believing with all my child's heart
that an explosion would surely follow.
I was only ten.