There seems to be no way to escape it. The pain, that pull that seems to draw my very soul to the deepest, darkest point.
It hurts. Not on the outside, but within. Sleep....sleep.....that gives me some relief from the pain. But Oh, upon awakening, it returns!
I am dying, slowly, little by little. Nothing gives me pleasure. I shrink. No hope. My body, my mind, my whole being, drifts as if an unknown force is pulling me apart.
Unable to concentrate, to eat, to see the beauty. Have to find help. What to do? Where to go? Sinking further and further down.....
Going to die. Get up, drive, drive, don't stop. Help me get to the hospital, Lord. Keep going, don't stop.
"You have come to the right place." I sink into the chair. Talk to him, Talk to him. You made it! I will be safe for tonight. " Thank you, Lord!"
Tomorrow, there will be a tomorrow. The pain isn't gone, but the pills should help. Hope for tomorrow, no more pain, no more darkness, no more sinking. Rest for now. Hope is on the horizon.