Several things have changed in the 30 years since I joined the Canadian Armed Forces. I didn't realise it for many years, but I actually was suffering from a mild case of post-traumatic stress disorder from the time I was a recruit. I had re--occurring dreams where I was still in Basic and a worse one where I was in a battle, had an enemy dead to rights in the sights of my rifle, and when I fired, I still missed. Fortunately, over the last few years, I've talked and written about it and the dreams have stopped.
Due to the fact that I had the developed epilepsy, my time-sense was screwed up, also, so there were periods when my time in the Forces seemed more immediate to me than the events of the previous day. This, too, has lessened... Thank God!
As I said, I was never a warrior...but, subconsciously, it took me quite a while to convince myself of the fact.