THE TREE OF LIFE
There has been a woman in my life for a lot of years now. All these years she has been trying to guide me to a more peaceful place inside and I have to admit that even though I thought I wanted this I have baulked every step of the way! I think it was a silent little fear of what I would find if I went there.
I have pestered this woman with questions on every subject imaginable. I have been so fortunate to have someone with her patience to guide me. And yes I believe she was put in my life for a purpose as is just about everyone I meet, but no one more than her. She has guided me with her words and when I was looking for more she very often would provide me with the name of a book and off I would go to get it. This has happened so often now that sometimes I just call her and say, “Isn’t there a book?”
There were times when I said to her that I wanted something more but I really didn’t know what that was. I just felt like something was missing and I had not been able to find it. That was when she told me I had to ask for guidance. I just needed to say a prayer and say that I was ready to learn more and that I was open and waiting to be guided. She said I might want to add that my guidance be very clear and specific or I might miss it. She also told me to be sure that I was ready. Oh that’s me okay, I’m always ready for something new!!!!
In the early hours of a morning sleep I met two women. They are older Native American women in traditional dress. They are quiet but I knew I was to go with them and there was no fear at all in my heart. I was brought to the center of a field with a huge, beautiful, full tree with branches that swing low and back up again. It reminds me of the old spreading southern oak tree, but bigger, much bigger. Under the tree there are rows and rows of sitting women in all different colored clothing. The first row is actually women that I have known, now passed on, it is such a wonderful peaceful thing to see them again even though we don’t talk. After the next couple of rows it begins to remind me of a beautiful watercolor painting where all the colors just blend together so beautifully. If I could paint that would be the picture I would do.
I am brought to just the edge of the tree cover and I wait there. Another woman comes to get me and guides me under the tree. I am told that I am here to meet with the grandmothers and I have been brought here many tiimes before but this time I will remember the meeting when I awake. I can’t begin to describe the feeling of standing there with the women, but peaceful will have to do until I can come up with better.
I am told that there are things that I am to do and the information I need will be there when I need it. It seems to me that this has been happening to me all my life. There have been times when something will be asked of me and I am answering with what appears to be the appropriate answers for the time. I am not talking about me being any kind of a medium. It is more like the feeling of intuition, you’re not sure how you know, you just know. For years I have tried to learn more about intuition and how to develop it. I now believe that the grandmothers are a very strong part of what we refer to as intuition. I don’t care about the scientific studies of such; lets just say this is my opinion. You have or will develop your own opinion.
One thing I know is somewhere in the meeting with the grandmothers I am told that they are concerned about our children. I am told that our priorities are not in order. That our children are learning too much from the wrong sources. I am told we are the true teachers of our children but somewhere we have lost this awareness. A few days after my visit under the tree I wrote what follows:
Grandmothers hear my plea
Direct who I am to be
I remember your being so wise
Recently I discovered our ties.
I remember your laughter
But I never heard your cries
Never heard them until now
As you watch our children struggle and die.
Our children are being put aside
While their parents are floundering with their priorities
Our children are being convicted and tried
When did our adults become so misguided?
So many mothers are struggling alone
Too many fathers using excuses
Children wandering around aimlessly
So many people ignoring the abuses.
Children are crying out loud
With every gunshot and attack
They are crying louder as each year goes by
“Please, parents, come take us back”.
The media distorts and dictates our goals
Money, more money and I don’t have the time
The stresses come from misguided souls
And the grandmothers say this is our crime.
We’ve forgotten the family for these goals
Not realizing until it is too late
And yet another child dies
Can’t you see we are signing their fate?
Our children need attention and teaching
They need no more toys
They need love, discipline and affection
Can’t you see how desperately they are reaching?
Grandmothers hear my plea
What is yet to be?
I didn’t question it at the time, any more than I am uncertain about writing all this right now. My wonderful “here and now” friend told me today that maybe it was time to share my writings with others. I have been very guarded about sharing with any but a selected few. Today she told me that there are many women who need to know that I think we women have forgotten that we all have intuition and it can be very strong in our society if we don’t “head talk” ourselves out of it.
How many times have you heard the story about the woman who persisted despite the doctor telling her there was nothing wrong with her child? She was just “being a worrying mother”. She was using her intuition. How many times have you just “known” something, you just feel it deep inside and it turns out to be real? How many times have you been faced with a decision and went against that nagging little voice inside trying to help you. How does that usually work out for you? How many times have you said the words “I should have gone with my gut feeling?” That “gut” feeling is your intuition.
Teach your children about intuition. Does it have to come out on TV with one of the stars or athletes before you give it credibility or can you use your own intuition to decide? Women are built different, you can see that physically but do you know it mentally. Men deal with facts for the most part, women deal with intuition or feelings if that phrase is more comfortable or recognizable to you.
I worked for a company once upon a time and I got to know the owner. He had just hired this new “wheel” a short time before and he was quite pleased with him. He made a mistake. He said, “So what do you think about Mr. Wonderful?” Hey, don’t ask me if you don’t want to know! I told him that I didn’t think Mr. Wonderful was who he thought he was. And we were off…. He fired off a few questions; he wanted me to justify what I had said to him. So I faced him with, “it is just a feeling, I can’t explain it, I just know he is not who or what you want to believe he is”. Being a businessman of quite some success he put my comments in the “that’s not useful file” until……. A short while after this Mr. Wonderful had pulled a couple of dirty deals and was now fired. I have to give the owner credit. He discredited my feeling originally but came back to ask me again how I knew. I wasn’t “into” intuition, I’m not even sure I knew that to be the word of description for how I felt. I just told him as I did before; it was just what I “felt”.
We are living in a world that is moving further and further away from intuition and into computers and media, etc etc. Remember the old farmers, before the TV’s and radios, we have no idea how many of them survived on intuition alone. The women who cared for their families with no education, simple intuition was all they had. We have made some wonderful advancements in so many categories. Use those advancements in everyway possible for you but do not give up your intuition. Listen to your intuition, it’s been here for us to use for more time than we can imagine.
When you are asking for guidance for something specific, be as clear as you can be about what it is you are looking for from them. But don’t be afraid to do it. If you are like I was and you’re not sure of exactly what it is you are needing, don’t let that stop you from going there. It will all work out. It will also be the grandmothers choosing the time so sometimes in those specific areas you have to have a little patience. I am still working on that area myself!
Teach your children about intuition, let them know what that nagging little feeling inside is all about, that it is there to guide them when they have questions about what’s right and wrong. If you don’t they will just flounder around making “head decisions” and following the “feel good” crowd. The one thing I have discovered as I am sure many others have, the more you use your intuition the stronger it will become. Help your children get a head start with their intuition; imagine what they can make out of it with your support and encouragement.
Maybe that was the grandmother’s strongest influence on me that early morning under THE TREE and tonight it has been given back to me to pass on to you. Run all this by your intuition and see how it comes out.