have to rest ... more later

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I was one of many people who recently purchased a powerball ticket. The lottery grand prize was 365 million, and having had the experience of winning the lottery on occasion,for a total of $105,000 and $5,000 on 2 most memorable moments and other winnings of anywhere from $500, $100 to $80 on others, maybe I was hoping that I could capture lightining in a bottle, once again. I imagined the presentation of the check /acceptence speech/ news event. I would say, "No, I'm not going to keep my job, if that's what I intended to do I would not have played the lottery" ... "I've always wanted to own a waterfront property, and this is my chance" and I would maybe go on to say..."I just want to spend time with my kids and have the chance to do all the things that having financial security allows you to do"
The fact of the matter is, I always practice a success senario, how else can you expect to succeed, if you're not preparing to be successfull, even in the smallest of details, you have to prepare, so I have a speech all ready and set to go, so if you see me on stag at a acceptance ceromony and I'm stiffled, please know in my mindat least, I was ready!
Hopefully my statements and responses would be well recieved, and I'm hoping to see heads nod in silent agreement and if the repore was good, I'd try to crack a few jokes, try to say something profound, and insightful. But I'd also hope that "10 pound TV weight gain thing", would somehow not make me look as old or older as I am, which for some reason I think manifest itself in my case as a "I'm tierd,and I need to rest look" which would preclude anyone I know from reconizing me, which in this case would be a good thing.
I acknowledge of course I've never seen myself as others see me, thank God!
I was born 3 months premature, even in today's world of mordern medicine that would be a serious medical challenge, it was even more so if anyone can imagine the effort and luck it was, 50 years ago.
Anyway there I am, after conviencing myself to buy a ticket, I'm driving all the way to DC, after working a 12 hour shift, hoping that traffic won't be too much of a problem and that there are not too many people thinking the way I am, and I'm greeted by other dreamers formimg major lottery lines, that stretch on for blocks, and everybody waiting to buy tickets.