I have asked myself that many times in life, I thought love was being with the opposite sex, and having many friends would mean you’re loved. I did not have a clue what love meant, it was not really a part of my vocabulary. I did not know how to love anyone because I did not love myself. I knew how to people please, I was great at that, and some people thought it was love. I knew how to say the word I love you but words mean nothing with no actions. I know different now, love is a beautiful way of giving to another person, love is God’s love, and love is an action.
I think we all have the feeling of love inside of us and sometimes we do not know it. I pushed that feeling away for years, because I pushed God’s love away, I was unable to be open and act on love. Since I believe love is an action then I have to act on love when I act on love then I feel love. If I do not feel the love then how can I believe in love? I think love is God. I have to be open to see love and believe. Look around you, the world is full of love just look outside and look at the sky, feel the breeze, and feel the love. Love never says no just like God never says no, I think many people are afraid of the feeling and the action of love.
I know I was afraid of love, and I still am at times; the reason I say I still am is because when I get into the fear of others and keep my mind on negativity I become afraid of love. I felt more comfortable being miserable in my own anger than I did with love. I can say that the reason was because of the way I was raised, so I have someone to blame. I can say it was because I chose not to let go of my anger and rage that was why I was afraid of love. I believe the reason I was afraid was because I chose to stay in the negativity. Love is positive and the other choice is negative, anger, rage and hate, fear. I had to let others love me until I could love myself; I had to learn to receive love in order to give love.
Love is a child playing, love is many things. I believe love is all just as God is. Love is exciting; love is healing when we love others we are helping in the process of healing. I like the idea of how we can choose many ways to express love. A mother’s love, a father’s love, giving love to a friend, loving your pet and loving from a far, tough love.
I needed tough love and I still do, love is a big part of life. If God did not possess love then life would not be here and God would not be, love and God are one. When we let the love within we become one with God, I know I have God’s love, you have God’s love. If you do not believe me look in the mirror and see for yourself. Now if you go to the mirror with doubt then you won’t see the love of God within you. If you say, “No it is not true ,” then it will be not true , for you. You won’t see the beauty within yourself; so then you will not see God. We do receive what we believe in, that is why I am choosing to have an open mind, so I can be open to all of the love and God in the world.
These are my thoughts and what I believe in. The reason I believe this is because I have gone through many experiences that have helped me see how this makes much more sense than the God I started with as a child. The fearing God, the one keeping score up in the sky. God is all. I have experienced the feeling and knowing, so this is my truth, no one has to go along with it. We all have our own ways of loving and believing. I just hope we all as individuals can keep an open mind.
Being open willing and honest that is what I strive to be a day at a time.