I believe I have to totally surrender in order to be free. surrendering is letting go of everything: people, places and things. Don't get me wrong, I do not mean to sit on my tush all day.
What I mean is that there are certain things I have to do to take care of myself, and be responsible. I have to be there for people, if I say I will be somewhere I better be there, if I make a commitment I better show up. If I want a job I better look for the job, God takes care of us but we have to also do some footwork. I have learned I cannot change anyone but myself.
No matter how hard I try it always fails. I am the problem my thinking is the problem. If I am trying to work on someone else, all I am doing is running from myself. Helping someone is one thing but trying to change someone and not helping ourselves is when we get into trouble. That is not easy for me, because I seem to like to be in charge. I like things to go my way, but it does not always work out that way. I have realized most things are none of my business because I came to the realization I cannot get into other people’s problems.
I believe nothing changes if nothing changes. I have come to the realization that life is how I react to it. I can enjoy it, or I can destroy it.
It is up to me as to how I react to the experiences that happen in my life. I learned the hard way and now I choose to take an easier way.
Staying out of God’s way.