In 2005 we met and we have a wonderful relationship with each other she is a wonderful lady and God knew when we were ready to meet each other, she also is sober so we have so much in common. I thank God for this miracle.
 

Once I accepted that I was ok just the way I am. Then I found her. It seems that is how life is once I surrendered completely and accepted my life just as it is then the miracle happened, once I get out of my will and Let God’s will take over you never know what can happen in your life.
 

Here is the letter I wrote in 1999 for my Dear Birth mom.
 

 A letter for my birth Mom,
 

I want to let you know you are special in my heart. I have wondered about you all these years. You have been on my mind. If I were able to see you I would give you a big hug, and thank you for bringing me into this world. I would tell you that I am glad to meet you, and I have no bad feelings about being given up for adoption, and I would have a smile on my face. I believe that God had a plan and that is why we are not together, but I also have a wish, and that wish is to meet you. If you were here, it would be like a dream come true . I am going to try to find you. I am searching and have some people helping me. I believe there is a reason for me to find you, because I believe you are special. I am dedicating this chapter in my book to you. I hope you are out there reading this if you are out there.
 

I have been in the process of looking for you. I have not found you and I will not give information on you in this book except I will say, I love you even though we have never met. I will express my feelings for you. I believe people can love each other just because we are human and children of God. I understand that you may not want to meet me. If that is true and I find you and you do not want to meet me it is ok just say so. I would like to ask some questions on health and I would like to know all about you.

If you are not reading this book, then this is for all the birth moms who are out there.
I want to send love to all of you who were not able to keep your children for what ever reason, and had to give a child up for adoption or give them up for another reason. I know the feeling because I have a child and my child is not with me.

I am writing this because it makes me smile, it makes me feel good as if I were talking to my birth mom. I may never meet you, or see you, but you’re in my heart. I know that the most difficult thing to do is to let go of a child; it is the most un-selfish act of love. What you did was an act of love. I know you did the best for me.

I am grateful to be in this life. I have so much love in my life now I want you to know. I am doing well now. Yes, my childhood was not a bed of roses but my life now is beautiful, God has blessed me. I believe we get what we need and I have a wonderful husband and I have a lady friend who is like a mom to me, who loves me.
 

Big hugs. Angels are watching over you Mom!

Life is what we make it. So enjoy it.
 

God is love.
 

Sending Love to you wherever you are Mom.
 

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