I let my son go into the court system in 2001. I had to keep my sanity and my sobriety. I have seen too many teenagers acting out doing things like this.
I did not want to be in the newspapers as a victim of my mother and son killing me. My mother and son have threatened to hurt and kill me off and on before I was sober and when I got sober.
Update my son is now 24 years old, in November of 2012 he will be 25. I still have not seen him since he was 13. This was the hardest thing I have ever done, was to let him go.
I know in my gut that it was the best thing I could of done for him but still I live with the pain. At the same time I know that this was what I had to do. I have not tryed to find him because I know in my gut it is not the right time. I believe that when the right time comes I will know. Just as the way I found my birth mother.
God is in charge and I am going to let Him because when God directs my life goes smooth and peaceful.
Have you ever done something you knew you had to do even though you did not want to?
This was one of those times but I know for my son’s best interest I had to let go and I have to let him grow into a man.
I wrote more in my book about my son. To be honest it is now a lot easier letting go it took all these years to get to where I am now. I know that there is a reason I know God has plans I just don't know what the plans are as of yet. But in time God will let me know what I am supposed to do. Just as God did with me finding my birth mom.
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Thank you Denise Contreras.