I believe the program is an inside job.
When I refer to "The Program",
I am meaning the 12 steps of recovery from Alcoholism.
When I first stopped drinking in 1995 I went to the program I went to many meetings to help me in my recovery, it helped me to meet the right people to help me take the steps as my sponsor told me, once I get into the program it was all up to me how I live my life, it is my choice.
Taking the steps is the program not the meetings not the fellowship. That is how I soared like an eagle as my sponsor told me.
That is to say after I took the steps with her my sponsor and got a foundation she kicked me out of the nest like a little bird so I can fly on my own. She told me now you are to take what you have learned and take them into your life, meaning taking the steps into my daily life and share with others. Sharing with others is like planting seeds, that was the legacy my sponsor gave me before she died. She shared with me and planted a seed in me, so then it was up to me and God to keep the seed growing.
It is my duty to share what my sponsor told me to all who will listen.
I can live in meetings being popular getting attention or I can just go to meetings and not try to be anything but myself.
The true friends I have met in AA are people who like me for me, not for what they can get out of me. That is hard to find in many meetings I go to. That is why when I go to meetings I am respectful to others but I do not get close to people as fast as I used to. If someone needs help and reaches out I will help if I can, but I do not chase people. God will bring the people to me if God wants me to help them, I have experienced that I cannot chase people, and I cannot save anyone but myself.
I have found through taking the steps and obtaining a Higher Power that I have a new way of life and God brings me to the Meetings I need to be at, especially now with my disability I have found a new meaning in life.
Life for me is not just meetings and finding people to help, life is living life to the fullest with Love and letting God direct me.
I am here to enjoy life not to be Mrs AA I have been there done that, I used to think that meetings revolve around me and that the meeting would not be good unless I was there to help others that is my ego talking when I feel that way.
The reason I believed this is because I used to be a nobody,
I got sober and then became a somebody with all the attention and now I found out that I am just an anybody, we are all equal, no one is above anyone else whether you have one day or 50 years sober we are all children of God no matter how low or high a person thinks they are.
I have found out that I am responsible for welcoming a new comer, however I have discovered that not everyone feels the same way because some people think they are a somebody.
People who are new in the program I would suggest to go to meetings in order to find someone to help you, to take the steps and learn how to live life sober. Those who have been around should be there to help the new comers and forget about their own glory help the new comers to fly and make a life for themselves.
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