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Survivor
By Denise Love Contreras
Tuesday, October 17, 2006

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Surviving an abusive marriage.

Hello before I start, I want to let you know I am an alcoholic when I was with my ex husband we both were drunks, that was one of the reasons I chose to be with him.

 

At the age of 27, I married a man who was the man of my dreams. We were married drunk. He loved what I loved. He did what I did, alcohol, drugs and sex. I was addicted to him. He worked where I worked so we really had fun.

 

We met and worked at a restaurant. I think back and wonder how we were able to live with each other. I was a mess, had a loud mouth and he was too, I was louder than he was. We both liked to beat each other up. However, he was stronger than I, so I was hurt worse. It was sick. I was beaten everyday. He had a wooden board under the bed that he used to beat me. If a day went by and I did not get hit, choked, or hit with a wooden board, then I was thanking God and saying he loves me he did not hit me today. That was how insane my thinking and the marriage had become.

 

I stayed married to him for two years. I also was living with him a year before we got married and he beat me then. I still married him which shows where my head was at. I was a mess; my drinking and drugging took me places where I did not have to go to. I lowered my standards and did things I would not want anyone to experience.

 

Near the end before I left him he really beat me and I got hurt yes, I was in a black out and I was in a hospital with knee and leg injuries. I still have problems with my knees today. It goes to show how I created a lifestyle that I still am living the consequences of my actions. The blessing is I am reminded every day of how it used to be because of my knees and it helps me to be reminded of how awful my life was, so I do not repeat those actions.

 

I left him in 1995. I went to an abusive women’s home but because I was not willing to stop drinking and they would not let me drink there I did not stay, after 3 days I left and went back to my ex. I stayed for a few months until the beatings got real bad.  One night he was chocking me and I thought ok this is it I am going to die for what ever reason he stopped and he was out of it the alcohol and drugs got him to a point where he just collapsed so I took that chance to get out I started to leave, he woke up and caught me and started beating me again. Then again he collapsed and that time I did make it out the door and left him. It was 3 am. I walked and walked cried and cried had nowhere to go. I ended up going to a recovery house for alcoholism.

 

God has been blessing me. I had a lot of work to do on myself but in time I have been able to get some peace. I went to counseling and I stopped drinking through a 12-step program. I got the help I needed. It took years of working on myself, learning to love myself and treat myself with love. It is a daily process even though it has been over 11 years since I have been out of abusive relationship; I still have to work on myself. If I want to continue to have the life I have today I have to continue to work on myself one day at a time.

 

My life has changed through the years; it has gotten so much better. I have a wonderful man in my life we have been together for 10 years. This was something I never dreamed of because of my choices I made in my past with men I never chose to be with a good man.

 

I hated myself so much that I chose men who treated me bad. I had a broken picker and would choose men who were abusive so I did not have to abuse myself any more. I had someone to do it for me. The pain in the inside hurt so much that it felt better to be hurt on the outside. Now life is different I do not hurt myself anymore. I love myself today and I do not allow people to abuse me. I do not need a man today in my life I choose who I want to be with in my life. I don’t have to be with someone to feel good that has been a blessing to be able to be ok with who I am and not have to have someone else to make me feel whole. I am whole and I deserve to have a good life today.

 

I have worked with other women who have been abused I want to let others know that they do not have to live that way if someone hits you once that is it, you do not have to allow it.

 

I know the pain and the excuses for allowing someone to abuse you. I have used excuses and I could have died, each minute someone dies from being beaten. We do not have to allow that to happen it takes time to heal but there is help out there for us and you can heal. We are survivors we don’t have to be victims any more it is a choice. Let’s choose to be survivors. You can live a good life with out being abused you can love yourself and you deserve to have a good life.

 

Today I have a peace that I never dreamed I would have. I am thankful for God in my life for walking with me and loving me even when I was not allowing His love in.

He loved me anyway.

For that I am grateful.

 

Thank you God.

 

Thank you for letting me share my story with you.

 

 

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Reviewed by Laura Mayer 3/12/2007
Angela,
I have just read your story, and I never realized how bad it was for you. I am at a loss for words. You truly are a gift to others, your strength and courage are miraculous. Thank you for your courage in sharing your story in order to help others who are in this situation.
God bless you Angela,
Hugs, Laura
Reviewed by ~ Holly Harbridge 2/14/2007
Angela, I never knew, and I'm so sad for you and yet so happy to know you survived this horrible ordeal.
You do shine now as Kimmy say's and I'm glad you found God. He is the answer as you know to all our problems. God Bless you my dear, love Holly
Reviewed by Kimmy Van Kooten 11/11/2006
Angela...every soul on earth carrys, at one point, a heavy cross. Some carry it for a short time, others...all their life.
You have been lifted, your cross shines now, not as a burden, but as an inspiration of light at the end of all the tunnels that will cross your path. Take your gifts and soar!
Love and Peace~
Kimmy~
Reviewed by Rhonda Galizia 11/1/2006
Angela, sweetie...thank YOU...for being strong and courageous; for revealing the ugly truth, that has became a beautiful blessing in His hands, because you CHOSE a different way of life! thank YOU...for being an example of His amazing grace to everyone who reads you. thank YOU...for leading the way for others. thank YOU...for being YOU....PRECIOUS.

Love&Hugs&Prayers, Rhonda
Reviewed by MaryGrace Patterson 10/22/2006
Dear Angela , Thank goodness you left and got help. Alcoholism is a very bad disease. You have suffered so much throughout your life. I am very glad you have found your birth mother and a good man. God is our salvation. Some times we may think he has forgotten us, but he hasn't. They say sometimes a person has to hit bottom before they can reach the top. Your story is an inspiration . I hope many read it. God bless you..........M
Reviewed by Michelle Kidwell Power In The Pen 10/22/2006
I am glad the Lord delieved you, it's amazing you are here to tell your story, but I for one am glad you are, you are going to save lives in telling your story
God Bless
Michelle~
Reviewed by Regis Auffray 10/21/2006
This is an honest, soul-reaching testimonial and you are very courageous, Angela. Love, peace, strength and blessings to you,

Regis
Reviewed by Karen Lynn Vidra, The Texas Tornado 10/17/2006
Angela,

God brought you out of the darkness into the light. You are a survivor in all the truest sense! Very uplifting, hope-filled write, very well done! BRAVA!

(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in Tx., Karen Lynn. :D
Reviewed by Peter Paton 10/17/2006
Angela

It is all about personal choices in life..
And you choices are all now astute and shrewd, by the Grace of God..

Love and Blessings

Peter




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