My second trip to lockup was my own fault. I did something so incredibly stupid. My husband had quit being supportive of me and had stopped sending me money. He was keeping my children from me, so my parents had hired an attorney to get my visitation rights enforced. I needed things from the canteen. My sister offered to help me out by bringing in cigarettes. The canteen only sold two brands so people were willing to pay big money (canteen) for something different. It was a huge risk. I knew if I got caught that I would be in trouble. I knew I had to be very cautious.
I developed a system and utilized the services of an inmate who worked in the Administration Building where visitation was held. She would get a cut of what I made. We struck a deal. I would get the cigarettes to a specific location and then she would retrieve them and get them to me later on in the day. It worked out quite well for the first few weeks. I moved the cigarettes through two other people - I didnt want to be directly involved in selling them. I didnt want people to know where they were coming from, as women tend to talk more than they should.
I talked to my sister and she told me how she had a prescription for zanax pills. I knew those would sell for top dollar. So I decided to give it a try. I used the same system and the same two people to move them. My locker was full and running over with canteen. I was even able to buy things for a few people who never got any money. I was becoming quite popular. Word got out that I was the source of the pills. Soon someone got pissed at me and turned me in. Thankfully on the day I was investigated after visit I had not brought anything in. That would have been horrible.
I was placed in lockup pending an investigation. So far all they had was the word of another inmate. I knew they could only hold me for 21 days without filing any charges against me. I was so scared. What if they found out everything? I hated to think of the punishment I would receive - contraband was a pretty serious offense. While in lockup I had plenty of time to think. What had I been thinking? To jeopardize myself like that? All for some food and cigarettes? Was I insane? I had turned into a drug dealer - may as well have been one - i was selling pills. What had I done? I felt sick to my stomach. I didnt like the person I was becoming. I didnt like this person at all.
Each day I was summoned to the Captain's office for questioning. I was determined not to break. They tried numerous tactics to get me to tell what was going on. I played dumb, like I didnt know what they were talking about. Finally, just to get them to leave me alone I fessed up to the cigarettes. This seemed to please them somewhat and I ended up only being in lockup for 9 days. However, I lost my visits for 90 days! This was a big blow to me. My visits with my mom and sister were all I had and I had lost them due to my own stupidity. I had to call and tell them. When I told mom I told her the truth. She couldnt believe it. She told me I needed to get myself together. She was right. I did.
Those 90 days were horrible. But eventually I got my visits back and shortly thereafter I went to court and got my visitation rights restored so I could see my children, much to my husbands dismay.
I learned a valuable lesson. I decided to change and get myself straight and get ready to get out of that hellhole. I would not be so stupid again!