Shalom Journal: 2:30 A.M PST
I slept for awhile but woke up a few minutes ago. Dad had to help me to the restroom EMBARRASSING! (Mom is at the hospital with Audrey) Dad was so afraid of dropping me or something. I can't wait to get my independence back! I hate needing help with things that use to come easily to me.
I am glad to be at home in my own room but it is kind of weird too, because everywhere I look I am reminded of the way things were before, especially when I look at the ballet pictures all over my wall.
I forgot to tell you journal that Susie came through her surgery okay, but they had to place a steel rod in her back so now she won't be able to bend. I know how much she is going to hate about it, and when I heard about it, I cried.
Well it's getting really late and I need to at least try to get some sleep, because in a few hours Mom is going to come home from the hospital so we can go to Sabbath's service, at Beth Shalom, our Messianic Jewish congregation and then we are going to go to the hospital to be with Audrey. Mom says later on today I may be able to see Susie.
Later. 2:3o P.M PST
After Sabbath services we spent most of the day at the hospital with Susie. She is still kind of out of it from the meds but the surgery went over okay. I am glad that I got to see Susie eventhough she is still in ICU, they say they will probably be able to move her into the room she and I are going to share either tomorrow or Monday.
July.16.06 1:00 P.M PST
It's me Rebekka Rachel again. I get to stay home until early tomorrow morning and then I go back for extensive physical therapy. I know it is not going to be easy, but I have to do it if I want to work on walking with two prosthetic legs. It was hard learning with one so I know it will be harder learning with two.
Mom told me Louisiana is flying in in the morning from Tenessee, I am glad that she is Mom and Audrey are going to need the support, I think Mom is taking what happened to me harder than I am.
I went before and after morning services to see Susie. She is out of the ICU now, but she has to stay flat on her back UGH!
Church went well today. Pastor laid her hands on me and prayed with me, it really did make me feel better, but prayer usually does, so their really is no suprise there.
Mom and Dad said after church tonight we are going to have pizza. YUM! I am glad the doctors let Mom bring food from home or from the restraunts to me because the food at the hospital is Gross with a capital G.
Mom called the doctors after church today, and they said that if I am healing well enough, they are going to fit me for prosthetic legs, and until then I am going to practice with the therapy legs. I know I have to be careful though. I know it has to be done though, because I want to learn to walk again, even if the legs aren't really my own. I believe I can do it though and Sierra keeps encouraging me.
Well I am going to go now, I need to get some rest before church tonight, I am tired.
3:40 P.M PST
I am more rested now. I guess a nap kind of does that to a person LOL. I feel a little stronger too, but I know I have a long way to go, and I will never really be the same. I mean I lost both of my legs below the knee's, and it happened less than a year apart.
7:30 P.M PST
Church was good tonight. I was glad to be able to go to church, it's better than sitting around feeling sorry for myself, which really isn't my style as you know. Although sometimes I do wonder why the Lord let this happened, why I had to loose both of my legs, but at the same time I know it is not the Lord's fault, and I also know it could be worse, I could have died.
It was nice being able to spend the weekend home, but at the same time I am kind of glad I go back to the hospital tomorrow. (No I am not crazy) I just feel that I need to work more on physical therapy, and besides I can help Susie through her surgery. I know Physical therapy is going to be really hard and frustrating but I want to be ready to walk when my new prosthetic legs come. It was hard learning to walk on one, so I know it's going to be harder learning on two. It will be worth it though, if I get my independence back, and maybe I will even dance again.
Well Mom wants me to get ready for bed, morning comes early and I do need some rest. I hope I can get a good night sleep.
Rebekka Rachel Cohen