legoless says:
Hey Sus
SusieQ says:
hey
legoless says:
Hey Sus
SusieQ says:
hey
SusieQ says:
they say I will be going home tomorrow
legoless says:
Awesome
SusieQ says:
I'm scared, Rebekah Rachel
legoless says:
I know I am to
SusieQ says:
I will never trust myself again.
SusieQ says:
I don't ever want to be left alone where I can have a flashback and harm myself again.
legoless says:
Sus give it time
legoless says:
I am scared about my appointment Monday but talking last night really helped
SusieQ says:
I'm glad I was able to help you
SusieQ says:
you know you once said you wished you could help me, after this happened?
legoless says:
Me 2 I wish I have been more helpful to you
legoless says:
yeah I remember
SusieQ says:
well, there is something you can do.
legoless says:
What Sus?
SusieQ says:
never let me be alone again, so I can't do ts to myself.
SusieQ says:
keep tabs on me at all times
legoless says:
Susie as much as I want to, I can't be there twenty four seven, but you better believe I will be there when I can be
SusieQ says:
I really tnk mom needs to just put me in a facility. I'm a danger to myself, and who knows, I could be a danger to others too
legoless says:
Mom and I went house hunting today, even though it was the Sabbath, so I guess they are serious about the move, so we will be staying in Tennesse it looks like.
SusieQ says:
I'm glad
legoless says:
Me too
SusieQ says:
maybe I should go rob a bank or something so they would put me in jail, I wouldn't be alone there
legoless says:
now you are just talking stupid
SusieQ says:
I almost told mom what I told you last night. I could bring myself to do it though
SusieQ says:
she already has enough worries w.out knowing I am having flashbacks ts severe
SusieQ says:
I just don't trust myself anymore, Rebekah Rachel. I did ts to myself, basically against my own will, if that makes sense
legoless says:
I know Sus, but in time you will here, I believe that truly, you just have to trust Yeshua
SusieQ says:
I don't want to hurt everyone again
legoless says:
Just trust Yeshua he will get you through
legoless says:
By the way I will be going to church in the morning with the Sandusky's but when I get home we need to have a long face to face talk, it's been to long since we've done that
SusieQ says:
yeah, I should be home by the time you get back from church
legoless says:
Kewl
SusieQ says:
I'm not sure if I should come home though
legoless says:
Sus I am sure the doctors know what they are doing and I am sure you will be closely monitored
SusieQ says:
not closely enough
SusieQ says:
you didn't tell anyone what I told you, about the flashback, did you?
legoless says:
no but if you are afraid you should really talk to someone
legoless says:
and if you start having them again I am going to have to tell
SusieQ says:
Mom is having surgery next week, and I really don't want her worrying about me even more
legoless says:
Susie you need to get back to Faith, you will not believe how much it helps, you need to start leaning on the Lord more
SusieQ says:
I am trying, I honestly am.
legoless says:
I couldn't get through my trials without Yeshua
SusieQ says:
I don't how you can be so strong
legoless says:
Only Through Yeshua
SusieQ says:
I am a total wimp
SusieQ says:
I always crack when things go wrong
legoless says:
You need to learn to lean On Yeshua
SusieQ says:
are you having fun at your sleep over?
legoless says:
Yeah I am
SusieQ says:
I bet
legoless says:
It's been a long time since I have got to hang out with Ronee
legoless says:
I wish you were here though
SusieQ says:
I'm sure Johnny has liked having you around too
legoless says:
Well that is mutual
SusieQ says:
yeah
SusieQ says:
I wouldn't trust myself to stay away from home
legoless says:
Susie you can't hide at home forever
SusieQ says:
yeah
SusieQ says:
I wouldn't trust myself to stay away from home
legoless says:
Susie you can't hide at home forever
SusieQ says:
I plan to
legoless says:
That's just stupid talk
SusieQ says:
I don't want to get somewhere and have another flashback
legoless says:
Susie you cant live like that forever
SusieQ says:
I don't know how else to live
legoless says:
I am going to have to get up in a few hours, and so are you so we may actually want to get some sleep
SusieQ says:
yeah, it's ok
legoless says:
My body is still not used to Tenesse time
legoless says:
Yeah it just takes time
legoless says:
Do you still want to go to my Appt with me Monday?
SusieQ says:
of course
SusieQ says:
if you want me to, of course
legoless says:
Good cause I am still a bit nervous about that, and I will be glad you have you there
legoless says:
of course I want you there
SusieQ says:
well, as long as I am able, I will go
legoless says:
kewl
legoless says:
I am glad for that
SusieQ says:
I will let you go then. They are planning to have me out of here at 9 in the morning
legoless says:
I better head off to bed now, or I am going to be going to church with keyboard indents on my head, and I am sure the doctors want you in bed
legoless says:
okay good night, I should be home from church between one and two okay
SusieQ says:
yeah, I plan to rest when I get home, as if I have not done enough of that already
legoless says:
your body needs it
SusieQ says:
it would seem
SusieQ says:
good
legoless says:
good night
night
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