yeah, I know you are busy getting into married life

how's it treating you?

I bet

I keep wondering if I will find someone like that one day

now I am wondering if any guy would want to marry me, after what happened tonight

I haven't even told my parents, they are going to to be heart broken

I feel like I have failed them, along w. everyone else

I'm finding it hard to type the words,

but I was raped

I was coming back across the park from my evening run, he came out of the trees and grabbed me

held a knife to my throat and made me take off my clothes

I was so scared, I still am

he cut my throat a little, said he would finish the job if I told anyone

my parents know I am not acting normal

but I can't find the words to tell them what happened.

it only happened about an hour ago

I don't know what I am supposed to do

my mom saw my bloody underwear and I told her I started my period

I'm still bleeding pretty bad too

I can't b.c then my parents would find out what happened

I can't fail them like that

all my life, I have been their pride and joy. I have been a winner.

and I am scared to go to the hospital too

if I had known you were back, I would have come straight to your appartment

I've already been so humiliated

how am I supposed to tell my parents? they are going to be shattered.

please

they are sitting in there, happy and laughing and I keep thinking about how I am going to have to shatter their world

yeah

I'm crying again and my mom is coming to check on me. Let me go. I will pack a bag and see you in a bit, ok?

one more thing?

would you help me tell my parents?

you aren't an infalid

invalid

you can do as much or more than me

yeah

what do you think of Natalie?

ok

I have a feeling I am going to be losing alot, I have been throwing up since I got home

I made the biggest mess in the shower and mom had to come clean it up, b.c I was collasping

ok, I will see you soon