Hi Sasha

Hi Kate

I heard you worry that we didnt like you

yeah, I feel like everyone resents my being here

Thats not true

We all have our place here Mamma Kendra has plenty of love for all of us

I'm not jealous, like she won't have time for me, I just worry I am unwelcome

I am glad you are here, I just do not do well with verbalizing

I have Spastic Quadrapalegic Cerebral Palsy

Aerial was telling me

I'm sorry if I came across wrong

no you didnt

at least you are not like some people who look at me and act as if I am to stupid to understand

no, I knew you could understand fully

and I tried not to treat you otherwise

I know and I appreciate that

I just didn't know how to relate to you

Well I felt alot like you did when I first came her but I was only eight

now I am almost eleven

I was adopted after the hurricane like Tyler

I'm 15 and some days I feel like I am two all over again

I feel like that alot

when PPL treat me like I am a baby

I feel like I have been droped on another planet

I guess in some ways I am like one, because I require so much care, but Mamma Kendra is showing us that we all have our special talents

you'll start going with the flow soon

give it time

my "talent" is obvious, but it has also been the cause of so many of my problems too

and at the end of the year, four more of the kids go off to the college

yes I have seen you dance

dancing has become more of curse lately, than anything else

if you dont like it you dont have to do it

Rebekka Rachel used to dance

well, I like it better since I have been here, it's fun again

Mamma Kendra doesn't put any pressure on me

and I like that

she wouldnt do that

so, I enjoy dancing now

I am glad I like watching you dance

and she lets me eat like I want, which my parents never did

I have to be careful what I eat, because I can easily chole

chole

choke

but I am sure I am boring you with this

no, not at all

I am surprised you want to talk so a lowly ten year old LOL

sorry, I had to go see where Soda was. He wandered off.

I think you've met him now, he's been visiting

shes in my room come on in

I know it seems silly talking online, but this is one way I can communciate

she's not agressive

or I wouldn't let her wander like that

No She seems to like me she climbed in my lap

and started licking my face LOL

she likes everyone

even strangers

I'm not scared of dogs

she can look really scary, being so big, but she is nothing but a big baby

she doesnt look scary to me at all

some people have been scared of her

and btw, you aren't just a "lowly ten yr old"

but before the Hurricane my Parents had big dogs

Foster Parents

oh, ok

When the Hurrican wiped them out, Mamma Kendra stepped in and said she wanted to take me in

wiped Louisiana out

New Orleans

I'm glad she did

It was really scary

I was probably somewhere in France or Russia during that time

wow

I've spent most of my life there

I was born in Russia

Mamma Kendra and I talked earlier, and she said you and I could go with Aunt Naomi and Uncle Micah too see Rebekka Rachel and bring her home if we wanted

I was born in South Africa

is she coming back to the US?

for a short time her and Susie,

oh, ok

but then they go back for treatments

how long are they going to be here?

A couple of weeks I think

oh, ok

they have to come in for some testimonies and the such

I was aware

is Soda still w. you? or has he moved on?

she still with me

my dog might have found a new owner

I was starting to have Spasms and she threw herself on me

no now shes whining at the door

are you okay?

yeah its something I live with everyday

I meant since she threw herself on you? She isn't exactly light

no I am not as fragile as I look

ok, I don't want her to hurt you

I will let her out

she can stay if you want her to

Mamma Kendra has been trying to adopt my brother too

no shes your dog

I'm not trying to be stingy, I just haven't seen her in 5 yrs

and when Holly comes back she might get scared

she's rather skittish, isn't she?

My brother is still in South Africa, I was practically thrown away

yeah

I haven't been able to get through to Holly

In some tribes if a child is born with a disability they are left in the wilderness overnight to die, and if they live, they may be allowed to live, maybe not

that's horrible

An American Agency found me when I was just a day and a half old

I'm glad they found you

me too

I think you and I are going to be good friends

I think so too

Maybe you can help me write my book,

I would love to

but I have a confession to make

I am tired of people thinking that I am unable to think

yes

I don't know how to read and write

I will teach you

my parents wouldn't let me go to the company tutor when we were touring

and I have been touring since I was 5

you are reading and writing a little

a very little

but its a start

I have taught myself as much as I can

I don't actually know how to write, only type on the computer

I cant "write" either

not in long hand

I don't even know how to use a pencil

I cant hold a pencil

it seems we have alot in common

yeah we do, I cant hold alot of things unforntuantely

I feel so stupid, not knowing how to write

Dont be ashamed, I will teach you, not to write long handed but to write on the computer and to write on the computer more

you are not stupid

it's really my parents' fault

they would not let me learn

I could not imagine not knowing how to read or write

its scary to me

it must be horrible

I know the world must be a scary place for you sometimes

I talked to Mamma Kendra not about thr reading but about you coming in with me and having Holly have a room with her sister and brother, I think it would be better that way

well, Soda is whining at my door now, I think he wants to go out. I am going to put him out and go to bed I think.

but you are Holly's only friend

yeah it can be, but you have to give it to God and live your life

not really

I don't want to take that from her

she would probably dislike me even more

no she likes the idea

ok

we can work on it tomorrow?

yeah of course

ok

I think I am going to have to go to bed. I am falling asleep in my chair

I need to ask Mamma Kendra to help me with getting into bed

Yeah me too

ok, I will talk to you tomorrow

we need to talk more like this.

We will alot since I can not exactly be a chatterbox when I am not online LOL

it's ok. I don't mind

Dancer Girl Disconnects

Kate (Life On Wheels) disconnects

that was so great

yeah wait until you see Kates picture

ok

I managed to bring one of YOUR characters out of hiding :S

I didnt know much about her