I would be lying to you if I said I never questioned what happened to me, if I never found myself grieving over what I lost, I miss running track and doing things that came to me so easily before. I am not the type who likes to be so dependent on others, which is why I fought so hard to regain my independence and get back home, but I am being truthful when I say I would not trade what happened to me, because I could have found myself falling down a dangerous path, and I would not have learned to lean on the Lord the way I have.
Besides as I said before I am the same person I was before the accident, I just can't walk, and not being able to walk does not change the person I am.
As I said before some of my classmates are a little strange, and some are just cruel. I have been pushed out of my chair, and told that if I wanted them to believe in the God I believed in I would have to get up and walk, I have came home in tears more than once, but the fact is they are just immature, and scared. They are scared of what is different.
I do not hold any bad thoughts towards the classmates who have been cruel to me, I just pray for them because that is the best thing I can do. I refuse to let anger eat me up on the inside like some kind of monster. I do not believe that I need to sink to the level of anger and hatred.
As I said before I am not a perfect Christian, and I am afraid there has been a time or two when I wanted to say something but found myself bitting my tongue, especially when I lay on the floor in the Cafeteria, until someone was able to help me back into my chair, someone had pushed it far enough way that I could not easily get to it. I guess it just goes to show some people never grow up.
I do have friends at the school though, friends who have stuck beside me throughout all of this, by no means am I loner who just sits around thinking about how my life changed, in fact I am to busy to sit around spending all my time thinking about it. Instead I live my life to its fullest, not dwelling on what has changed, instead I embrace the life I have and will continue to do so.
To Be Continued...